Something that you hate?

@joemama711 was just complaining about the new cheap "lids" on the Whole Foods/365 ones lol

@verucassault I'ma have to check it out, never bought anything from whole foods, just heard they have a decent salad/food bar.

Real mature... You're forgetting about how important the dressing is!!!

Double post ... Blah blah blah... Tis a PSA... Don't let the past rule your present and thus predict your future. I hate that for far to long I've let past choices rule my current heart... I hate that I've done that to myself and to those around me. I hate that I've let my heart remain behind a stone vale for far, far to long... I hate the constant state of stagnation I've let it lead my mind into. I hate myself... I hate my CURRENT self. Rather, I hate whom I've allowed myself to become when I know there's potential for so much more and so much better. On the bright side, in saying those things, I know what it is I need to change, just not necessarily how.

I hate myself for not crushing this disease. It literally took everything and then some crazy shit to be semi decent. I hate narcissists not fighting there traits. And, I hate how easy people are so willingly manipulated. I hope one day people will stop following narcissists. Or the narcissists will take there dangerous personality serious. It's not a game. Stealing / winning there trust just to be mediocre is a crime. We don't deserve that trust but atleast let it make you more than you are. Because people are counting on you. But, they look typical to me. All the shit in there system I see it in my system. But, I haven't seen any form of suppression from them like grow up. You should be on overdrive honestly because of what you are. I know I am. Why do they have time to be the typical stereotypical narcissist. They must not hate it to the core of there being. It must not trample on there joy as a human. They scared of taking L's because of perception. Instead of taking them for the sake of the truth being exposed of who the man is there following. Cowards I love my L's because I know how I deserve to be viewed. Anyone who views me differently after knowing the truth well I got alot to prove to them. These narcs are far to typical like they can stomach living with the illness. I know alot of the narcs but none of em to look up to. Sad as all hell when you gotta solo grind because all the narcs just typical. Do any of those mfs wanna beat it or just use it. How can you be careless and so free with all those people counting on you. None of these mfs I can look up to. Even have to deal with the delusion / dream that maybe I'm strong enough or important enough to forward the bar of us being more human. Because I know others out there like me hate it as much as I do with no proper role models that they can look at and not see the symptoms. Stupid ego. But, it is what it is they need these men to play the game for them. They say it's the age of truth lol they fking around. Narcissists got the biggest truth to tell but they cowards having everyone believe there shit don't stank. But, it's still in game phases. Lol it would be funny if a narc would tell you they shit stank. Then maybe I can be like oh we not playing no more. Are the games over? But, we got to many games to play lol. They said age of truth lol bruh. All it is is pointing blame. I got alot to say about this damned disease that I would probably die for. I hate narcs that think because they love you a little that it's ok to have fun and not remain vigilant. I hate the ones who play games with people hope. I know they do it because I got to fight not to do it. Fucking disease all these fucking narcs so erratic and eccentric and unserious like you not literally plagued and in charge of people. Making mistakes like everything you do doesn't echo. Grow up. It's not fun to be this way. Love your life after giving everything to the ones counting on you. That's the way none of us want to do it but that's the way. Mfs acting like they can continue to live normally being connected to people in such a way. [Insert rambling Fuck no you noob you don't get such a joy. Why should you have such a joy you gotta ask yourself that. But, I can't talk I'm one of them. What makes sense to me is complete sacrifice of self that's the route I'm undertaking. To become what my love ones need. Having only the capability to create a better mask to mask the darkness doesn't hurt when you let the ones close to you know you have nothing and are ashamed. Ask for there forgiveness and acknowledgement that you are enough regardless of how you must function. And, be done with it. The mask isn't so pressured when they know what you are. Just be vulnerable when it pretains to upkeep of the mask that you formed to love them that they said is ok. I bet these other narcs don't have the time to feel shame that's both good and bad. They get more up time but there uptime isn't as good as it could be haven't experienced great amounts of shame for prolonged periods. But, God says carrying your shame is bad. I took a bad path it almost consumed me. So, I probably shouldn't recommend that path. Just fucking do something and stop being so typical. We ain't got no data because none of us working our ass off to be different. End rambling]. I'm still a problem myself but I got plans and things are working I'm slowly expanding how I care and who I care about. Another thing I hate are people who idolize the darker aspects of life and personality like atleast lower your chances of being weird. Nothing about the shit is cool especially when shit gets real like grow up. But, I guess having to fight it constantly made me less likely to do something like accept more knowingly.

@willworkforisekai Having had an uncle that fits that definition of narcissist I can appreciate your words. What you said was very true about how narcissistic individuals often forget how much value they have with the decisions they make especially when it comes to their family and children. What my uncle did with his life before his violent death deeply impacted my cousin and I's lives. Not to mention countless other people's lives throughout his life. I hope you fair far better than he ever could especially because you are a father as well and your daughter absolutely is effected by your decisions. Be well for her sake if no one else's. Christ be with you!