Log in with your MaiOtaku account.
Home Forum Anime Search Newest Help
sun_die

sun_die

Female
Last online 18 days ago
Romania
Please login to post.
noar
Crystalguy @noar left a comment for sun_die
Dec 17, 21 at 4:08am
I wish all the happiness of this world becomes yours :)
sun_die
Dec 12, 21 at 5:57pm
Pic
I wish I was happy
sun_die
Nov 10, 21 at 2:11pm
Pic
I was bored at highschool so I did this
sun_die
Nov 04, 21 at 5:08pm
Fuck being alive and fuck everyone, I tried so much to be the best person I could. I helped everyone, but nobody gives a shit about me. I hate this. I'm so done with being the dumb cunt I am. Fuck this. Fuck this life I have.
sun_die
Nov 04, 21 at 5:03pm
I tried to hide this for a long time cause I never had someone to talk with and I always feel like it doesn't matter. Like everything that happend to me is equal with zero. My best friend of 14 years raped me last year, for about one month and a little few days. It's the worst to think that even someone that you knew all your life could do something to kill your soul. I've been in a dark place all my life, my parents were never here for me they were always bussy with work, traveling or making fun of me, my grandparents raised me, my grandpa died in 2019 so my heart breaks even thinking about this. In 2016 when I didn't even had 11 years, a guy started to threaten me with some photos of myself (I was dumb, I have to admit that, but I was only 10 years old...he was 16...I didn't know anything about what to send or what to not send)...I started to cut myself, I even cutted my hair. I still cut myself to this day, it is lile an addiction... I want to kill myself so bad, I came close to this so many times, I almost died so many times...but I just can't do it, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of not dying.... Last year in the summer time my best friend who was 18 at that time, keep in mind I wasn't even 16 years old, raped me for a month straight and another days...it was hell, I tried to scream, do anything, but I just became like a fucking doll, I told people what happend or at least I tried and everytime the answear was "Boy will be boys" or "It isn't like that, you're lying". My little kitty Pumpkin was killed and then my heart really broke. I can't live like this. I want to die so bad and I fear that I will actually do it in the next couple of days.
auntron_
auntron_ @auntron_ Woah hang on :o! I might not be the best person for this because of the time I have to spare, but I can’t ignore this. First off, I’m so sorry for everything that’s happened to you, you deserve so much better and it really isn’t fair. That ex friend of yours (he’d better be an ex friend) is a piece of shit and should be punished to the fullest extent possible. There’s no such thing as “boys will be boys” when it comes to rape, that’s horrid and whoever said that to you makes me sick :/. I’m also so sorry about how your parents have treated you, truly it sounds like a good amount of misfortune stems from how they treated you, it isn’t right and again you deserve better. I know cutting oneself can be a way of coping with the misfortunes that you’ve been going through, and I feel for you, but self harm is never the answer. I know you know this deep down, and I know it’s hard to quit, but you can do anything you put your mind to. Please don’t attempt suicide, your writing this is evidence that you don’t want to, it’s a cry for help of which I’m trying to answer. It’s kinda dumb, but I used to tell myself this whenever I felt down, and I told my friend this when she was suicidal and it made her feel better (she had a horrible childhood, teens even worse, now she’s a mom and I’m so happy for her). I used to say (and again, it’s dumb lol) “statistically the chances of being alive are so incredibly slim, there’s the alignment of our solar system for life, the existence of the universe, the generations that preceded us making it through hardships and had they chosen to have a kid one month later or chose a different person than they did then you wouldn’t exist, all of these factors make life so precious. The chances of you being right here right now are so incredibly slim, it’s a miracle any of us even exist.” So yeah, it might not mean anything… but truly your life is priceless, too priceless to throw away. I know life hasn’t been kind to you, it sounds like a lot was taken away from you… and I’m sure it hurts more than I could possibly fathom. However, you deserve to be happy, and you deserve to have a great life. The world is so much bigger than us, what I mean by this is one shouldn’t feel trapped, because you’re not. With enough effort you can go anywhere, and leave that past behind. You have so much potential to do great things, to move others through positivity. Also, I’m sorry for your loss, growing up I’ve had rabbits, dogs, cats, turtles, ducks, and chickens. I’ve loved them all and have seen a lot of them die. Some hit by cars even, but their love hasn’t left me, and your cat’s love hasn’t left you. It’ll live on forever through you and around you. Please don’t commit suicide, you sound like a wonderful person with an amazing heart. I’m sorry I’m not that good at this (^^’), I’m not as strong and optimistic as I was last year thanks to some malicious people and fake friends, but I’ve been able to rebuild myself thanks to good friends and family. Still, even if it’s a jumbled mess of a message, I just want you to know that your voice is heard, I care about what happens to you, and I care about what has happened. I mean it, I care about you.
auntron_
auntron_ @auntron_ If you ever need someone to talk to I’ll do the best I can to be there for you, only if you want to of course.
sun_die
Oct 20, 21 at 8:23am
Pic
Another kitty helped by me. I saw him in downtown after school, he looked so cute, such a sweetheart. I took him behind my apartment building, he has a nice cozy box full with blankets to keep him warm at night, some food next to it, water (of course) and lots of love. We love you Pumpkin❤
sun_die
Oct 15, 21 at 1:59pm
Pic
Who wants to talk, I'm bored af
sun_die
Oct 09, 21 at 2:03pm
Pic
The last kitten I saved from poisoning...ugh people are just so bad, how can you poison a little baby...he is an angel, he had is mouth and gums burned, so I had to take him to the vet for about an week. Now an old pady got him❤ Love you Smoala❤
hell_hound7
Panda-kun™ @hell_hound7 Wow that sucks, glad you stopped to save him
sun_die
Sep 21, 21 at 4:46pm
Pic
Well it's my birthday, Happy Birthday to me I guess
sun_die
Sep 18, 21 at 2:27pm
Pic
I've felt my life crushing down on me as I just discovered I have genital herpes type 1....I feel so alone, I have no one to talk with, it's so hard and this first outbreak is breaking my heart...I just want to end it all when I think I can't have my life back...
hell_hound7
Panda-kun™ @hell_hound7 Hey if you need someone to talk to, im here for you. Dont really look at this as the end. Lots of people still live their lives with herpes. With the right medication and treatment it just becomes another thing you have and not really burden on you.
Continue