SnakeePoo

Actually having it put into words like this describes the sensation perfectly. I pray for everyone else too who suffers from this that things change for all of you.

Merry Christmas, man https://media1.tenor.com/m/js9Vd6sbFH4AAAAd/santa-claus.gif

I was scrolling on Reddit and found a post that resonated with me about the unknown. It was more or less a woman talking about the unknown is exciting to her, and how she is fine with whatever comes her way. I was reminded that my whole personality nowadays is something based entirely around my past and derailed me from who I was. Growing up I was afraid of the unknown, and never knew what to prepare myself for. Always being scared of the dark or deep waters. My grandpa one day took me fishing to this pond he owned, that in my eyes, was gigantic. I was afraid of that pond never knowing what was in there. As we fished, throughout the several of hours we spent out there, I came to realize the unknown was exciting because you never know what blessings you might have coming your way. That was when I caught my first fish, 4lb catfish, I was so proud of that catch. When I came of age I wanted to venture out to see the world and what unknowns were out there for me to be blessed with. I guess after getting burned I became scared again of that unknown holing myself up in my room watching anime and wishing things were different as I dwelled on the past. I lost the passion of adventure that made me who I was to begin with. It just all clicked together now after reading that. The little wonders of life are in what I seek out myself. There is a while world STILL out there waiting for me. Just wanted to say it on here and share my experience with y'all I guess. It feels good remembering who I am at my core and not some wannabe anime character(s).