First, forgive yourself. When a person decides to exit life, that's their responsibility alone just as it's everyone else's responsibility to respect the deceased's wishes and try to not judge them on the choice they made. You can try to understand why the person would have chose an out. You might try to put yourself in their shoes. Maybe it will enlighten you to some things you didn't know before. Past trying to gain understanding and doing that, it's just a matter of time. That's not to say "time heals all wounds"... It doesn't. Some wounds don't heal. What you do instead is build a tolerance to the pain and learn to live with the pain. The pain reminds you of how much you cared for the person. Eventually you will think about it less, the pain won't be as sharp.

My dad looks super young and we got called a cute couple by strangers. Or maybe people just think I'm a gold digger My brother is ugly though.. I wouldn't like to date anyone who looks like him.

i saw a bike like that for sale about a year or 2 ago. it was pretty sweet but it was like a grand (mostly shipping)

@daredevil Thanks for the advice, I agree, part of the reason I asked because I myself are not sure if its even possible to mend other people heart. Of course, no one in their right mind would throw away a friend IRL that you don't have pretend to be someone else when around them, for whatever reason.

Dude you're 14. You still have lots of time in your nurturing environment. Enjoy yourself and your plentiful free time. Relationship isnt always a golden thing. Trust me because things change later... for better or worse.