Found out hard feelings against God = stone heart. Found out renewal of the mind is clearing the cache of all your hard feelings. This helped me figure out other stuff aswell. Like how to be beneath somebody. Narcissist always think themselves superior. It's like a switch in our brain that we can't shut off. But, I finally acknowledged I'm am not others equal let alone superior. I am beneath most of you. And, normally that would create anger and self loathing for my powerlessness and inferiority. But, it doesn't have to be that way I can be beneath others without getting mad or self loathing. Because I just learned to value who I am and not what I am not compared to others. I had hard feelings about myself = stone heart = barrier seperating me from loving myself because I was not as good as others. There are many things which to love myself for. And, maybe it's good to see others as above me so a narcissist pride can taste death often. And stay humble when my pride tells me to shine above them. No they can shine above me. Everyone wants to be the sun nobody wants to be beneath. People can't stand basking in another glow because it makes them feel inferior they want to shine and have everyone bask in there glow and make them feel inferior like they felt. You can be beneath someone without feeling inferior especially if you love them it's way easier there shining more than you is not a measure of or jab at your core identity. You must know you a sun at your core without even shinning. Cause once someone shines above you might do to much to prove you not inferior. Anyway, it's fun to validate someone else's shinning just like they validate yours. I could maybe get some more insights out of this but I'm tired.

Without labels, it will be like playing a video game on very hard mode without knowing it's on very hard mode and wonder why we are losing a lot. Some don't want to know why because they don't like it and want it to stop. Labels are like clothes. No rules; no limits.

God sees your heart, your pain, and your desire to keep seeking him. Don't let fear convince you that you are beyond his grace. Keep turning toward him, even on the hardest days. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

@talmerie1sback Late night talk show ahh thread lmao

(1:31 PM Sun.) Happy November 1st everyone! I hope everyone's month is starting off great? It's my second oldest sister's Birthday today, so I'm chillin' upstairs with my family while the Birthday girl scrapbooks and draws (she's an artist). Other than that, the end of October was definitely interesting. It's interesting because I ate a cricket yesterday...my sister got them from a store cause she always wanted to taste them, so I decided to try one because if she does something, there's a high chance that I'll try it too. The flavor of crickets were sour cream and onion, and...they surprisingly weren't bad, just very bland, like the shell of a sunflower seed in taste. It's surprising I even held one, let alone eating a cricket, cause if you were able to see me irl you'd quickly see how terrified I am of nature in general lol. I can at least say I tried a cricket. But, you'll NEVER see me trying or holding a spider, dead or alive.