Political rants

I'll prod... You good, buddy? @willworkforisekai

@yaasshat Aww aren't you sweet checking on me. I'm okay man really. That text was born from seeing the cycle regurgitae and eat itself so many times. Kinda over it. Not really mad myself. Just mad for people. As a narcissist it's disheartening knowing people don't have defenses against manipulation. Why are people so easy? Other than that I'm just disappointed in my abilities to discern truth. Since you want me to share... I tried to become a robot because of my narcissist roots. I thought that's the least I could offer because I am what I am. I spent 5 years anayzling the problems everyone care about no matter how minor because apparently it's weird to hold so much commotion in your head. People want peace of mind. It's weird to take on everyone problem as your own cause people are selfish. Well I didn't want peace I wanted everyone's problems lol so I could be better acquainted with humanity needs and wants. Problem is I lost myself to the insanity of humanity. I demanded nothing less than perfection from myself when it came to calculating truth that could be understood by all. I jumped through hoops for everyone because nobody wants to without people even knowing my name but I couldn't handle the weight of the world's problems so I went insane. At least I tried I stretched my intelligence to it's limit and burned for it. It's just maddening when people won't deep dive for the end all be all answers we need. There's always something left out cause people have no intergrity to gather everything. Anyway I tried so I feel I can give up on humanity. It's hard. I understand now why people don't stress them selves out with others problems. You need a great mind I'm just a narcissist that can't even reach a fraction of a healthy mind power. So ultimately I'm fine just a bit disappointed I couldn't be a voice of truth because of my fallible nature. Just disappointed I have to watch more of the same as the cycle eats it's self and spits itself back out again. But, I do feel free I don't have to track humanity as hard as I use to. I'm of the camp of I don't think they care because it's a massive undertaking and bogs down your mind. It's good for calculations if you can stay sane and not grow mad for knowing as many of humanities problems in conscious awareness.

Please stay well, Will. You mentioned battling your mental health. It's an uphill struggle made more complicated by how the current world we reside in amplifies our imperfections. I'm grateful you're vigilant on needing to stay creative and not become complacent in how you're approaching the many barriers our society is facing both self inflicted and otherwise. I take you at your word that you seek Christ's guidance as well as protection during these trying times. May your faith empower what is blessed inside while creating a barrier from the curses lurking within the shadows of the flesh. More than prayer, I have faith for your family as well as you that God will grant respite from all the anguishes plaguing y'all. I'm grateful for what you've accomplished thus far. Just don't forget to have mercy on yourself and trust no matter what. We all are where we're supposed to be right now. We're gonna make it. Just please don't let apathy win!

@gabriel_true I think I cared wrong that's why I'm taking a step back from caring about the world problems through myself because I'm imperfect. I'll much rather care about them through Christ knowledge that's already deemed perfect. That's where I'm at. No sense for a narcissist to try and keep up with the times considering how slow we is. Somebody will be smart enough to bring the people together one day. But, I don't look for peace from man anymore. So, I'm not waiting on it to happen. The only peace i ever felt was from God. I'm fine though i been took that step back stuff in the past just felt like talking about since he asked. I think I got schizophrenia from caring to much and wrong. So let me have my break. I'm not really useful. I still don't think they care at all

https://youtu.be/MHFTXYtDx6g?si=fHHQeZGsd7bwI08d He wants to rename the Gulf lol

https://youtu.be/7k1ehaE0bdU?si=QkDdGjeCHoGTSXFc https://media.tenor.com/VWbwqhXAS7gAAAAM/hmmm-thinking.gif