Maybe our parents shouldnt have had kids?

I don't think my father was ever ready to have a kid, and it seems he sure as hell regrets it from the way he treats me.

I don't think my parents should have kids. Thanks to a certain policy and the fact that my birthplace is the one of the most prosperous regions in this country, I've been loved even spoiled by my parents.However,they have no idea of appropriate ways to raise a daughter.Illiteracy prevents them from being open-minded,polite and well-mannered.I'm female, so I will be called degrading names by my father whenever there are disagreements.They got married because getting married is a societal norm.They haven't loved each other.Conflicts constantly break out between them, in most cases, my grumpy father will shout at my mum,call her names and smash anything at hand like bowls up.I could do nothing but lock myself in my room listening to music.Both of them like calling strangers names,so I'd rather not tell them my life..I don't hope my acquaintances,my teachers are addressed in rude ways by my parents.I avoid discussing my life plans with them because I hate the fact that in the eyes of some people,womb is the most important organ of mine.They have no idea of boundaries. Though they have so many flaws,their parenting has more positive effects than negative effects on me.They know the importance of education, so I reach the position I'm on.I cannot forget what they have done for me.I'm trying to strike a balance between filial piety and my desire for freedom and knowledge.I'm also working on ridding myself of anxiety.

If it wasn't for always getting yelled at I wouldn't have been so obsessed with making the world better. Things happen for a reason.

http://childhoodtraumarecovery.com/2018/04/29/avoidant-parenting-and-its-possible-effects/ http://childhoodtraumarecovery.com/2017/03/26/childhood-trauma-manipulative-parent/ http://childhoodtraumarecovery.com/2013/12/27/the-effects-of-emotionally-distant-parents-on-the-child/

Now that I think about it I haven't really helped the world but I make a city on the pc that is cheep to make and it works good. It's still mostly 2d though. I'm not good at the computer but I mostly had help.