Vent

@Bruce: Thats what Light Yagami said :D

Lowkey fed up with the way things are, i am not sure what i can do to even change things. I've tried everything at this point...now im just waiting on essentially a miracle and it sucks things are like this when dozens of people get to have it easy. I just feel like life is against me, i get things when im not ready for it, but when i am now its impossible for me to even catch a break. At this point i have literally gone out of my way to change my life up and im still struggling. Idk life just feels uninteresting and lame, almost nothing excites me anymore. Haha i had a girl tell me pretty much i have no emotions, sorta feel that way sometimes. I just force myself into situations of anger and disappointment just to feel something. Cuz my happiness and sad feelings died off ages ago.

Saitama that you ? On a serious note though- Don't worry too much. It'll pan out just fine. Think of how worse it could have been and consider yourself fortunate that it didn't go that way. Don't worry, your time will come.