Loneliness and isolation

So long story short, ever since my girlfriend and I broke up two years ago I’ve had horrible luck. I feel as if I was cursed. A few examples: My aunt passed away, every friend I’ve had moved away, failed the Fire Academy, and more recently I wrecked my newly purchased car (my pride and joy), a complete loss… now I’m being used for $8k. I have no friends, no car, no money… I feel like a failure with no purpose anymore. Honestly it felt nice being alone for some time, but now I’m sick of being cooped up. I’ve been feeling really lonely lately and I’ve lost interest in my goals and hobbies. I’m unemployed. Days are so slow and this isolation is getting to me. On top of this I suffer from chronic toothaches and infections, there are days I have a feeling of impending doom. I can longer go to conventions and goddamn I’d do anything for a real hug. I’m losing my mind, literally. I'm not the type to get depressed or give up, but I don’t know what to do anymore.

Aww that's an everyday for me ever since my ex broke up anyways here's what u gotta do in steps 1. Cheer up or fake it 2. Ally for unemployment until u get a job 3.Get a pet time low wage job 4. Look for job at high pay 5. Save money ( sum thing I suck at) 6. Train harder for firefighting and 4 urself 7. Buy a used car 8. Once your sumwat caught up apply for a loan 9. Buy an apartment 10. Acquire room mates help you pay 11. Don't forget condoms 12. Take firefighter test 13. Kick back enjoy life <3

I'll make it simple... Improve yourself by getting out and just taking a chance with the world. Also, get those infections checked out, septic shock is a bitch... Believe it or not, there are clinics that will work with you. Also, a job is a job and right now there are tons of seasonal positions unless you live in the middle of nowhere. Do what you have to do until you are happy being you.

I haven't had a girlfriend in over 4 years, although I can't say my life has quite hit the bottom yours has overall, I know what it can be like being in the pits of depression. I can down with Tinnitus about 3 years ago, which for those of you who don't know, is ringing or perpetual sound in your inner ear that doesn't go away. It was a side effect due to some medication I was taking to deal with tension headaches at the time. I've gotten over it for the most part, but the first several months I had it sent me down into a spiral of depression and I became a shut in and wanted to do nothing more than I absolutely had to. I went from calling my parents once every few weeks to almost daily just because I didn't have many people I could talk to about it and they helped me quite a bit to deal with it, but I really can empathize with someone who is in the deep bowels of depression and what it can due to your psyche. As far as getting out of your rut, first, you gotta hit the pavement and get a job, even if it's nothing to write home about. Even just the act of getting out of the house and going to do something productive will help you battle against the rut you're currently in. I had to burn about two weeks of vacation time a couple weeks ago of which I mostly sat home and played video games and hung out with friends occasionally, but by the end of the second week, I was almost looking forward to going back to work just so I'd have something meaningful to do with my days again. The other part is go get your teeth checked out. I know the thought of dental bills can be scary, especially if you're already in a lot of debt, but many places will work with you and hell, there are free clinics out there in a lot of areas if you look hard enough. You're nothing without your health, and if you're dealing with infections and pain, than's not going to help you battle against your depression. You're not going to get out of your rut over night. It may take many months, but you gotta take small steps to start digging out even if it all seems hopeless. Get yourself right first before starting to worry about a relationship, because lets face facts, in your current state, would you really be the kind of bf to a girl you'd want to be dealing with what you are in your life right now? I don't know you personally, but being miserable yourself is only going to poor over into any relationship you're attempting to forge and it won't help your chances. I know it's easier said than done, but you can't sit around in a funk forever. Even if it's getting out of the house for a half our a day and go for a walk, that's still better than sitting on your computer all day wondering where it all went wrong and how you got to that point. Realizing you have these issues it's the first step. Now you gotta start working on the steps to get out of it.

cecil said it so right. just follow the steps he said. no matter how shitty it gets.. as long as you stay outta house. youll be on the right path

It'll be difficult but.. Stand up. Move forward. http://hdwallpapers.cat/wallpaper/one_step_len_walk_fade_vocaloid_anime_hd-wallpaper-1239666.jpg

After about 6 years of having no girlfriend the pain gets to be very manageable. Sounds like you have a lot more pressing matters to deal with right now. Best of luck to you.

Which one do you think is worse? Not having any relationships at all or being in relationships with people who you dont like or just treat you like crap...after a while of nothing but bad relationships you kinda get turned off by it