What Are You Listening To Right Now?

While my father's being hospitalized, I listened to and started singing one of his favorite songs. https://youtu.be/Z9-FQMxO_-Q?si=1G7uiyVIimSIcp_j Then I started listening to and singing this next song that not only sounded sentimental, but pretty recent, too. https://youtu.be/KTXQdJIsvhg?si=N5phoXxg9dxbfYte He was brutal, especially after he became a Vietnam War veteran. I wish he was more like the father in this song that inspired "You Raise Me Up". I can sing both really good. https://youtu.be/KZ3E7kIYtR0?si=EzZ5AnENMvgODUqU After I felt my big brother's spirit coming from Heaven down to Earth to whisper to me, "Hey Casey, let's go see Deadpool & Wolverine together!" (he used to collect X-MEN and X-FORCE cards and I first saw Deadpool as a collector's card and he told me he was a Super Villain. Back then, Deadpool was a nobody. Nowadays, Deadpool reminds me of my big brother), and heard two versions of "Like A Prayer" by Madonna, our mother introduced me to this song by Taylor Swift, because it mentioned his name "Drew" and I literally shed tears while our father is being hospitalized for heart valve replacement after catching COVID-19. Brother Drew wanted a guitar for Christmas 1999, but not long after I was intuitive of 9/11 when playing Math for The Real World on PC in November 1999, Brother Drew passed away on the 28th of that month and year in a car accident driving our father's BMW (exactly like in 1988 film License To Drive). He was nicknamed "Turkey Man" in high school making even a crying girl laugh by gobbling like a turkey. Then I kept seeing flocks of turkeys everywhere and even adopted two polts (one named his last nickname "Frodaddy" that died instantly, then other was named his childhood nickname "Drewski" and he brought back memories growing up together). Even my mother saw on one of his past birthdays a flock of wild turkeys on his grave with one of them standing on top of his tombstone. This is a very, touching song. He was 16 and for his belated 40th birthday gift, Jimmy Buffett passed away and went to Heaven with Brother Drew. He was a fan of him not long before Brother Drew passed away. Now it's September 2024 and it's been a year since Jimmy Buffett passed away and this Thanksgiving Day will mark 25 years after Brother Drew passed away. https://youtu.be/Km2wuMealjE?si=BZJmX5c2IghUUmpU https://youtu.be/z11jxaOu_Cw?si=c5YDhaqTXBTybY77 https://youtu.be/xKCek6_dB0M?si=xeWrVK9xZNLr55KO At his funeral, there were like around 200 people there. We leaned against walls down the hallways to walk from one room to another. One of his BFFs played this song when his casket was being rolled out. https://youtu.be/XKGw_hrlaOY?si=WVWcOlu8X9In1moB

Sorry about your brother's passing and that your father and you have a difficult relationship. My dad is also a Vietnam veteran. We also have our challenges relating to one another. Again I hope your dad will be well soon.

Been updating my PS1 emulator, now have this Spyro song stuck in my head. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Qo4ZAEaD84

@gabriel_true Likewise Gabriel. My stepmother just texted about my father, "He’s much better right now. They just brought us back to wait for a doctor." The lyrics in this song sounded like his final weekend before our first weekday without him was Monday, which fits well with Jimmy Buffett's song "Come Monday". The moon was almost last quarter, but still bright and can affect me and him by lunar effect. It also sounded like him and Jesus talking to each other in the song. The film came out not long after his first birthday. https://youtu.be/3VopScslvPo?si=rH4jr8P8iBu1llJ1 The car he passed away in looked like this and he borrowed it from our father. He wanted to borrow my portable Aiwa brand CD player with car battery adapter and car audio cassette adapter that possibly led him to tumbling his car down the side of the road and hit a fixed object. If he didn't hit the fixed object, he would have lived. The film came out when he turned 5 while my learning and speaking ability were slowly growing, then our parents filed divorce and my big sister loved Billy Ocean and still enjoys listening to him occasionally. https://youtu.be/jehJed3rZhU?si=g0169mjuO5QxZKik His last Christmas was not long before the premiere of The Prince of Egypt which that film spiritually hit me miraculously enough that my instincts pointed at Moses saying, "He's like you, Casey!", and had three performers me, my big brother and big sister associated ourselves with growing up: Boyz II Men (Brother Drew), Mariah Carey (Big Sister) and Whitney Houston (Me). While our big sister loved blasting the "Ol' Dirty Doggy" version of "Fantasy" by Mariah Carey and my elementary school graduation had me and my class perform "One Moment In Time" by Whitney Houston in 1995 (the same year I felt intuitive of COVID-19), big brother loved Boyz II Men in his childhood until our mother kept smiling at him enough that he kept turning his face away from her negatively. One of the cassette tapes he ruined forever was from 1992 that had his and one of our babysitter's voices in it name "Craig" say quote... Babysitter Craig: " I'll tell you what! I'll tell you! * unclear words * " Brother Drew: "What?" Babysitter Craig: "You'll get your driver's license. That's what I tell you." Brother Drew: "I have to be 18!" Babysitter Craig: "16. How old are you?" Brother Drew: "9!" Babysitter Craig: " You got 7 years, you better start growing! *unclear words* " That year, 1992's No. 1 Song on the Billboard charts was this song "End Of The Road", which I've been listening to very recently. My big sister considered it the best Billboard song in the 90s in her opinion and I agree. He used to be similar to our mother in looks and music tastes until he and even Motown & Stax genres were aging away with him. "Water Runs Dry" was his favorite Boyz II Men song and it sounded like his and mother's hearts fading away from each other, which he listened to right when he got a Sega Saturn for Christmas. https://youtu.be/zDKO6XYXioc?si=RWXZWlYyp6E2fvjt His last songs he enjoyed before he passed away were Eric Clapton's "Core", Kid Rock's "Only God Knows Why", Santana & Rob Thomas's "Smooth" (father said they were his idols), Linkin Park's hits including "Faint", Korn's "Freak On A Leash" that frequently hit MTV's Total Request Live (TRI) (which he often watched after high school while eating Famous Amos cookies like Cookie Crisp cereal before Keebler bought them. He was eating out of the regular-sized chocolate chunk drag-out tray kind they no longer manufacture) and some of Limp Bizkit, Jimi Hendrix, Puff Daddy, 2Pac, Notorious B.I.G., James Taylor, and especially Dave Matthews Band including "Everyday". He hung a Dave Matthews Band flyer above his twin-sized bed. https://youtu.be/RXe8PFKsOIc?si=wIC16Dx5RtW2mMBB During my last year in the same high school he went to, this song was popular due to the people lost in the 9/11 terrorist attacks. It also makes me think of my same brother not only for his loss, but even by being there with me when I was intuitive of 9/11 in November 1999, not long before he passed away. I was sitting on the bleachers in the outdoor stadium listening to the last parts of the song in my mind. My mother's father also passed away nine months before the 9/11 terrorist attacks. https://youtu.be/pePOBbWEqy4?si=yTrL3Y9CFGo6JPud The last video games we played together were these two, and I kept beating him. He wanted Ken Griffey Jr. Presents Major League Baseball, but the other was his very last... https://youtu.be/W9O032KK_jM?si=8rz6Pl59T6ra7EuD https://youtu.be/rIwWCioBpEM?si=PZJCcfclTZ5ZjENs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq7qbjXkvqA I find the japanese kind of lo-fi to be best for my creative mind to thrive

I finally remember my brother was curious enough to pick up this album while I was sitting at the same Compaq desktop we usually sat at. He then asked me, "Pikachu's Goodbye?" not long before he passed away. Recently, the voice actress Rachael Lillis who voiced Misty, Team Rocket Jessie and various Pokémon, passed away from breast cancer. She was 55. This Thanksgiving Day will mark 25 years after he passed away. I first heard of Rachael Lillis in the credits of mine and my big brother's last video game we played together: Super Smash Bros. (N64). https://youtu.be/7GZALDMV308?si=cbvJ4nBu43p0OJU3

Hibiki Misora's vocal version of Shooting Star from Ryuusei no Rockman. Always lifts up my spirits when i'm down~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlDs071_k6U

Cosmic Eternity: Believe in yourself from Sonic CD jap version https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5AW7xQ_Dxjk

This was one of my big brother's last songs he enjoyed before he passed away. He wanted me to see the ending. https://youtu.be/n7TLTjqUyog?si=A0-FkPeXQveoqweG It was even featured at the World Trade Center Plaza. https://youtu.be/VYjzrRzmFnY?si=2K1O7nL3Ph8yVuYm

@meisterman1985 Your brother's favorite bands are some of my own. I was surprised to see Collective Soul still performs to this day. "Here to Eternity" is their newest album. https://youtu.be/yuJE4zhvtiQ?si=k5B7s5Rn-ZN6gwjM https://youtu.be/k6XqBea3ORk?si=0xOB_HDqayVIQ0RC