Suicide

Why not let the people who want to die, die? And I'm serious with that statement. I mean, if they sincerely wish to die, and have a valid reason, I don't see why I should tell them no and convince them otherwise? 'But Kichi, they'll be hurting and leaving behind everyone else that loves them!' Aint that a lil selfish? you can't kill yourself because other people will be sad? What about what makes that person happy? If their friends were such good friends then why is that person contemplating suicide in the 1st place? Ok, so you missed the signs? Sounds like a YOU problem. You missed the chance to save your friend and now that it's too late you want to pour more guilt on him/her cause you'll be sad? yeah, fuck that. If the person has friends that ignore the signs that they're lonely and are in need of help, then you're just as much to blame for the suicide as the committed is.

Signs? Depression doesn't always show like a zit for all to see. No one had even a remote clue about how I used to feel and they still don't. I fought a silent fight like many do, but I've gotten over it like many don't. The best anyone can do is to help themselves. Depression is kind of like cancer, it starts off easy to manage, but eventually in some cases it can become all consuming even if no one else can see it on the outside.

I think my interactions with girls causes me more depression than anything. Because I fall so easily and usually get hurt. But nothing I can do about my feelings.

When I play strategy games be they video games or actual war games such as paintball or airsoft, we have a thing called the 3 Cs. Communication, Connection, Cooperation. I feel the same can apply here. Talk with your friends, family, or whoever you believe is contemplating suicide. Make them feel connected with you. And try to include them in your own activites (cooperation). Because when someone has no one to talk to, they often feel disconnected, and that makes them not want to cooperate with anyone else. And don't stop doing the 3 Cs after the problems go away. Keep doing them. You're friends. Be friends. Bottom line: Connect, Communicate, Cooperate.

I felt really suicidal a couple times, but rather than just throw myself over a bridge or something I decided to push my luck doing really stupid things on my motorcycle. Well nothing happened, I'm still alive and over it kind of.

I tried committing suicide once. Couldn't go through. Years later, I'm still depressed... but I'm glad I didn't go through.