Suicide

@Jean I call bullshit. I won't die. Even if I'm killed.

Suicide is serious and sadly not something anyone wants to deal with. while people might say they want to prevent problems in the world, they still go for the cheapest and quickest solution never truly wanting to solve it however not wanting to look like an A hole so they pretend they want to be rid of it...and when your depressed enough to commit suicide it's like your walking around almost blind, you don't see your family as being by your side, you feel your alone with no one to understand...sometimes you don't even understand yourself which causes only more confusion and self hate or world loathing, your basically over analyzing everything going on or being said to where even a person who cares asking "are you okay...?" makes you angry because they're most likely pitying you or feel they'd be a horrible person if they did not...making you no more than a burden....also feeling they don't really want to hear when it fully comes down to it...so you offer a fake smile and reply with "I'm fine." when you actually feel like your dying painfully slow on the outside. sometimes you yell at others to push them away due to the self hate or feeling they don't truly care or understand...people tend to drift and leave when your depressed feeling they can't deal with you making you feel even more abandoned by those you thought you could trust...while there are mood stabilizers and such for depression...it can take almost a whole life time to find the right combination of meds and the right doctor to give them...some doctors give up on finding the med solution passing the responsibility for your health to friends and family who care which you feel are nonexistent and therapy when you probably already go to that...even your doctor gave up on you so you feel your unfixable...soon most will turn to self medicating with alcohol and other things not necessarily because it makes them feel better but because it makes the pain easier to handle due to not being fully aware of things it makes you not care as much about the constant suffering feeling like you already died internally oh too long ago...most of the time they didn't really mean to kill themselves but over dose on accident in an attempt again to not care escaping a tad...depression has a quote I feel works perfectly for some cases. "Depression is like drowning except you can see everyone around you breathing." suicide is a last resort when you feel nothing will change because you feel you've tried everything only to be given up on...so why not give up as well. those who self abuse do so in a desperate attempt to keep from killing themselves...self abusing isn't always cutting it could be burning, bruising, breaking bones on purpose, pulling at their hair, drinking and drugs, etc... but eventually even those things don't feel adequate any more...it feels hopeless...so then suicide is what it'll come to in their mind...but if in their senses they would never consider it...but feeling like your already dead and constantly feeling pain alongside never ending confusion becomes tiring...sadly I know what depression is and people have hated me for it...I've felt like dying before...most can deal with depression for years with out others around them knowing or knowing but not realizing how sever it is...I know because I always wore a smile acting happy when in truth I was not...though I didn't do this only for others but to convince myself I was happy..."If I'm smiling that means I'm happy right???" so it's not always the family's neglect it's people who are depressed usually wont show it most of the time...for many differant reasons.

I hate people saying it's a cowards way out...actually it feels horrible to hear that...it makes me feel worse on the it because I have those feelings...meaning I'm already a coward...so. and sometimes the only reason for moving even when daily life it torcher to go through...is all those who told you you'd be better off dead or tell you to just go kill yourself...keep alive just to spite them...and being someone who's dealt with some feelings above and had family members who drank and did drugs because of depression...some dying because of this...My cousin, my father and others are and where not cowards...just tired of being torched by pain every waking moment...I don't drink or do drugs because of these people...but to hear that others think of us a cowards is insulting...IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE DEPRESSED FOR YEARS AND NEVER FELT THE NEED TO DIE...SHUT UP!!!! if you'd walk a day in the shoes of the severely depressed you'd go insane because you'd b never felt it before...to suddenly have those feelings...people who are depressed had years to slowly adapt to the feeling only for it to get more extreme latter only to feel like your getting worse day by day...seriously don't talk crap unless you've lived it...and there is a difference in situational depression over things like loss and normal depression that goes on for years...I usually don't get rude but...depression runs in my family along with bipolar...I had family die from self abuse...I hate hearing that in others eyes they were only seen as cowards...when in truth they were kind hearted, loving people who where just in pain and scared...they tried to stay but eventually lost themselves leading to death...I've even had to visit a suicide watch hospital for my fathers sake when I was only 5...please be more considerate before you carelessly judge...

I glanced through it and all I saw was situations you could easily avoid ;D You dont like your family? Get away from them. Run away, emancipate, go live with a friend. If you dont get along with people in school, stay away from them. If people tell you they hate you and you shouldnt live. WELL UHM MAYBE you should not be hanging around those people. The only safe haven is yourself. You need to take care of yourself and be your own best friend. Dont talk crap about yourself or give in to those negative thoughts. Always keep yourself positive. EVEN if you think its not true. False confidence gives way to real confidence over time. I've been through ALOT of shit and nothing has fazed me because I told myself Im fucking awesome so what does that mean? It means Im fucking awesome ;D Suicide is the cowards way out. Because they didnt have the balls to live through the crap. Life is what you make it. Change it.

well I wont deny you have a right to your opinion. but things you see as easy I can't say I do...I'm not going to criticize your thoughts any further on this. I'm sorry I said anything to start; personally I was just venting...seriously though I am sorry if I upset anyone. and I guess if you still feel that way then I'm weak. and lol if you told me you didn't read all that I wouldn't blame ya I write too much wasn't really expecting many people to. to be honest you made me laugh seeing that pic!

It's takes a weak man to do nothing and a strong one to do something. Pull the trigger? Stronger than I am in the aspect, but weak for just giving in and giving up. Make a positive change to yourself for yourself? I admire that and consider no weakness in that. I too went through a lot of mental anguish and luckily have over come most of it or at least what could be considered some of the more crippling parts. It's like this, if you want to get fit, you exercise and change your eating habits. If you do nothing, nothing gets better and potentially gets worse. But, I'm not naive enough to criticize someone's experiences. I will however look at their outcome. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. I more than realize we are not all dealt the same hand nor do we all view every experience the same, but some of the strongest people have been broken time and again only to be molded into something that the world can look up to. We are amazing creatures with enormous potential if we only put our minds to it.

^ Yes @lonemaplesunflower Dont be sorry thats your opinion, we respect it. Just pointing out why we disagree. I think we are in an environment where we can exchange our thoughts and ideas freely and learn from each other :P Kichigai is hilarious lol

As someone who attempted to suicide herself during high school and know multiple friends with the same issue, I can say there's really no straight up answer to what we can do to prevent it. Each person is different (as obvious as it is), and they need different solutions. It easy to say they should be hospitalized, but I have one friend who was, and her depression just got worse while there because she felt like those who loved her had given up on her by putting her in the hospital. When she finally got out (I don't really know what got her to that point), she started seeing a therapist. Now she talks it all out and is much better. Between sessions, she knows she can talk to other people as well. She just need to get it out. When my parents found out, they took me to the doctor and called me out so I was put on the spot. I was put on an antidepressant, and even though in the beginning, they had to make me take the med, I noticed I felt better and now take it on my own. An other friend of mine was suicidal because of her home life. She figured out that her senior year and force herself through it, knowing her friends loved her. She's felt better since she moved out on her own and got away from that life. I've heard hospitalization works for some people, too. I think the people around them need to realize the sighs and take in account the other person's personality. Maybe go out of their way to let the other person know just how important they are to them. Suicide attempts and thoughts just say that a person has given up on themselves for what ever reason that may be. In that case, try to tap into your inner Kamina and try to get them to see you believe in them! Maybe you can get them to believe in the you that believes in them. It's not a bad start to help them see just how important they are. Maybe the closest thing to a solution would be making more people know the sighs so more people hopefully can help those who need it.