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Gabriel @gabriel_true If I may, you mentioned needing 8 Patrons. Since you have tiers, are the 8 in reference to your $5 membership or the $50?

Gabriel @gabriel_true I appreciate your honesty about what you're battling currently. Having come from a family where suicide was normalized through multiple relatives succeeding I don't take such means to an end lightly. I see you mentioned in your profile that you yourself have counseled those battling that condition, so you've no doubt experienced both sides of this dilemma. We both know how cruel and unkind the world we're living in can be. It most certainly isn't fair nor always kind. That said I know we share the same planet. The same plane of existence. We're even of a common age. I don't know exactly what living in your body and mind are and won't try to imagine for fear of belittling your current suffering. All I desire to do is provide a minute respite by offering genuine assistance. Admittedly I don't feel like even if 10 people joined at $50 a month that with the current market it would be very comfortable to live off of. Still I will see what can be done, You. Is there a way to offer more through Patron? I have not used it before, so I am not sure how that system works?

yuuzora @yuuzora Yeah, it really is the only way out unless I start making money from the last things I can do. To make matters worse, my brother, who is supposed to be paying me $30/month to drive him to and from work throughout the week(he also pays $60 in petrol a month), he has lowered his tier on Patron, so now I'm needing 10 more Patrons to make up for what I lost. I'll have to ask him tomorrow why he's stopped paying me the amount I was before. As for how my Patreon works, currently all tiers get stickers on their birthdays and Patron anniversary, early access to my manga and the light novel, and exclusive content and polls I don't post anywhere else. Which includes music and coupons for my online store, where I take requests for. It isn't much, but it's honest work and the only work I'm physically able to do. Especially since I don't have time for another job on top of the several things I already do to make money. Which includes taking care of my mother and driving my siblings and friend to and from work. I make under $200 a month from all sources, which is a pittance compared to how much I need to make in order to save anything to get out of here. Sorry to rant, it's just... it's a lot right now.

Gabriel @gabriel_true I agree that's a small amount to live off of. I would hope that there are some other ways for you to make a living that didn't fully rely on speculative income. Hopefully you are maybe able to do remote work for a company. One that wasn't customer service driven. In any capacity, I will see what I can do to help. Please continue to work towards your goals no matter what challenges you face. You do matter greatly. Thanks for taking the time to talk with me about this, Yuu.

yuuzora @yuuzora Likewise. It isn't often I speak openly about this subject. I already drive 30 hours a week, my other MO friend convinced me I need to start charging my siblings and friends a solid rate for my driving them around. I know they pay the petrol, too, but they're bleeding me dry for everything I do for them comparatively. Even $10/month from all four of them will make a difference. I do have tenacity somewhere in my brain. It's just since the abuse is still so constant now, it warps my brain and I just want to escape. I won't give up... I at least have to get my oldest sister out. She makes wayyy more a month and could make it work for herself. So if only she'd be more selfish and just leave while she can. I keep telling her tiny house living isn't for everyone, anyway, so she could just get a cheap apartment. Anyway! Thank you for listening. It helps to say these things out loud so I can hear how stupid they sound/look in retrospect.

Gabriel @gabriel_true I'm waiting for my tax return to clear. Hopefully it doesn't get delayed. Once it does I'll look into signing up to your Patreon.

yuuzora @yuuzora Hn. I still haven't done my taxes yet. 1099s are a real pain in the arse. And thank you. I could use all the help I can get.