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WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 25, 26 at 9:36pm

Oh that's something that never happened to me. So, I can't say anything helpful. I'll just pray all things fall into place for you and you understand your strength and beauty.

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 25, 26 at 8:31pm

To surrender all you have to do is accept your identity in Christ. You don't have to earn it or be worthy. God doesn't want you to beat yourself up. But, I understand sometimes I beat myself up to stay on top of my game. It use to be deeply personal but now I just do it to keep my edge while moving forward because has done good works in me that I acknowledge which balances my self worth. It was tricky for me as well to understand how to surrender. What helped me is realizing his love is free. The gift of salvation is free. Once I knew that I accepted it. You can accept it to. You will never be good enough for God you are loved how you are imperfect. Nothing you do can separate you from Gods love we don't accept it because we feel dirty. All he asks is to accept the identity in him and know that you are being made a new ceation and that the old things are passing away. He didn't say get clean before surrendering he said surrender to me and I will clean you up. With your identity in Christ is something that follows you it never leaves you the blood of Jesus is thoroughly and repeatedly washing and cleaning you as many times as it has to. As long as you persevere following him and keep trying to be more like him. You can safely abide in his love. God loves you he doesn't want the clean you he wants the dirty you that needs cleaning. Don't feel bad if you can't surrender now. Just stay on the road they call it the long narrow road for a reason. God is not ashamed of your speed of surrender also he won't force himself on you and make you surrender. He is gentle and patient. God is not ashamed of who you are. God sees all the good in you. He knows your limitations and won't hold them against you. God is proud of you for seeking a closer relationship with him. So don't personally attack yourself but if you do atleast acknowledge the good works God has done in you. I see a person God has worked on and alot of good things show about you. You might can't see them. But, one day you will. God sees them and he doesn't want you to judge yourself so harshly. He wants you to acknowledge what he's done in you and be excited for more. He wants you to see the good in you as well so you can be thankful for yourself and the walk he has you on. Hope this helps.

Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you, Kai. I think the hardest part for me is that I am very self-aware and know/agree with all of what you said...it isn't that I doubt God Himself (I know that He's good and perfect in all things), but the idea that He actually uses/speaks to and through me is what my mind and spirit are constantly warring about. It's like the Bible verse that says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." My own self-hate and doubt sometimes get in my own way...even when I know God can and does use me...and it also doesn't help what happened last year, something was said that caused my own self-worth (or lack thereof) to crumble even more, so I more so doubt myself too much to the point that I feel I am not allowing God to speak to me because I doubt if I actually heard Him. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— I know that, at the end of the day, it's just my flesh and the enemy, but even though I know that, it's hard to fight constantly.

Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying Thank you very much, Kai. I appreciate you.

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 25, 26 at 8:31pm

Posting Messages For Gabe (@Gabriel_True) Until He Comes Back To The Land Of The Living

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Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying

Jan 25, 26 at 6:49pm

@gabriel_true Day 101: I'm tearing up in a closet rn, Gabby. I bet at this point you are wondering what the crap is up with me and this closet all the time lol, but I sit in here because it's getting cold in our room and the closet is warmer than out there. Anyways, I usually hate to talk about problems I'm having cause I feel really burdensome to others when I do it...but, as you aren't actively online, doing so is a bit easier. Me and my baby brothers Birthday is coming up soon, idk if you remember that it's March 1st, but there's the date for you–but, idk if I'm happy about it? It's not that I don't want to celebrate it...I really, reeeeally do, but there's a thing that God has instructed my sisters and I not to do right now that I can't explain in detail yet (if at all) that is not allowing me to celebrate how we traditionally do...and it's really hard for me. There's a plethora of other things that are making me feel really sad right now that isn't just that, and it's just irritating to me. I end up getting stressed out by myself because I know my self-doubt/hate is really a cycle and it's something I am trying to fight against, but I also feel like I'm not trying hard enough. I know that I need to surrender it to God, but I feel like I don't actually know how to surrender it wholly unto Him and it irritates me–I irritate me. God has promised me (individually), my sisters and my family so many great things, and yet I feel like I'm not truly worthy of such things. This process God is having my older sisters and I going through is extremely difficult at times cause I feel like it'd be easier of a journey without me, but, I know I shouldn't be thinking that way BECAUSE I know what He's said about us three being together for such a time as this. I've also been thinking about cutting my hair cause I feel like it's beauty is wasted on me. I don't take care of it properly, and it hurts me because I truly want to, but I never do it like I say, and so I start to tell myself God wasted His time on creating such long, curly hair for someone like me...which is really rude to Him because-to reiterate: I KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE. I really am tired of thinking this way...because in all honesty, I can't bring this mindset with me where God wants to take me, but I feel like I don't know how to properly give it away to Him. - I Love You, Gabby, and I'm Sorry For The Sad Post: Wei-Wei

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 24, 26 at 7:19pm

Don't beat your self up from what I seen your a nice person. I hope you know and believe that. If you feel like you want God to work on you more just know that he is. Sometimes we go through storms and God is silent. But, from my experience the storm brings about innerwork. I know we get frustrated with ourselves and become impatient but God hands are always on us at all times all he asks is for some patience and perseverance so he can finish the work he started in us. I can tell you God will finish that work he started in you. And, one day you will be happy with yourself and feel all the suffering was worth it. But, don't beat yourself up a mirror that shows only flaws is a lie. Your a good person and I can tell you have a big heart. I pray God helps you with whatever you need help with. Feel better.

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Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying

Jan 24, 26 at 6:17pm

(7:04 PM Sat.) I'm crying over a heart that was given to me today. I haven't been doing my best internally lately...I keep doubting myself about certain things happening in my life recently and, in all honesty, just being a huge jerk to me. It's something I have been really fighting against and yesterday I just went to sleep early (for me anyway) and silently cried myself to sleep (I didn't want my sisters to hear me). Before I drifted off, I remember asking God to truly just help me with myself, because I know I am my own biggest enemy most days tbh...and I even told Him that sometimes I feel like I don't hear Him anymore or He's not listening to me (which I know isn't true, but I felt honesty with God is better since He knows it all). Today, after our mom came home from grocery shopping with our baby brother, she rushed downstairs and burst into the closet I was sitting in (cause it's cold over here recently), excitement on her face as she cups something in her hands. She tells me that she almost forgot to give this to me, but she found it after exiting the store she went to (which is truly surprising as our mom hates picking up random items from the ground outside) and really felt like I needed this item. My mom un-cups her hands and within them is a bedazzled heart (I really love hearts/heart-shaped things). It's kind of dented in one corner and is missing exactly three sparkles, to which mom apologized for giving me someone else's junk, but...she truly doesn't know how much I love it and needed it. God immediately spoke to me after my mom shut the door...He said that He always hears me and loves me. That just in the way that my mom looked at that dirty, slightly worn and busted heart on the ground but still saw the value in it, that He still sees value in me no matter how battered and weary I may feel at the moment. So, yeah, I am forever treasuring this little heart I've been gifted forever. ❤️

Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying Now I'm crying again (good tears, don't worry). Thank you, Kai, for the kind words, I needed to see that. ❤️

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 22, 26 at 11:34pm

That says alot about you setting it to hard mode. Pressure makes diamonds. I don't know who tf set my shit to hard mode they a asshole. I'm not made for this shit but I'll find ways. Shout out to you pain is a good teacher you must of gained alot from it I bet. Good game to you to sir.

vectorphresh @mrvee

Jan 20, 26 at 5:46am

I hear ya. The kind of Inner work that feels like a voyage into deep space… that you gotta plan for the trip back. I went down the rabbit hole plenty and faced some dark nights. Came to an understanding about the universe, but no more hard reboots… meditation only these days.

vectorphresh @mrvee Sometimes it’s too much for me too, and I’ve been through enough pain to fill a few lifetimes. That’s the reason I know, because I can’t explain how I got here or why I held on to my beliefs through it all. All experiences help us grow, and sounds like you’re on a similar journey. I like to say I set the game to ‘hard mode’ before I started. A good game well played to us both.

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 21, 26 at 7:30pm

Your a bigger man than I. I don't care about the universe. I just want to do it to let pain be my teacher. Knowing about the universe is to much for me I'm a narcissist. But, atleast your brave enough to explore. Respect.

vectorphresh @mrvee

Jan 20, 26 at 5:46am

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 12, 26 at 10:00pm

Oh ok. I'm glad your keeping your faith even in the rough times. That's inspiring that you choose to lean on God and trust that he will provide. I hope and pray yall situation get better. With God I know it will.

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 12, 26 at 9:44pm

Do you have cash app or venmo so I can send your family some support no one should go hungry.

Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying I do have a cash app, but I don't want you to send anything, I'd feel bad about since my post wasn't meant to guilt anyone into sending me any money. I just wanted to testify of God's goodness to us. I really appreciate you though, Kai, thank you. ❤️

Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying Hebrews 11:1 KJV, "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Even when I can't see it, it's right there, cause God has everything I need in His hands. All I need to do is be in the proper place to receive what He already has planned.

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 12, 26 at 9:44pm

Do you have cash app or venmo so I can send your family some support no one should go hungry.

Posting Messages For Gabe (@Gabriel_True) Until He Comes Back To The Land Of The Living

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Spicy Mommy ® @wei_ying

Jan 12, 26 at 8:58pm

@gabriel_true Day 89: Psalm 37:25 NIV, "25 I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread." Matthew 4:4 NIV, "4 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ ” And, Matthew 6:30-34: "30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." God is a way maker and promise keeper, Gabby. He is Jehova Jireh; God my Provider, because He is faithful in His promises to clothe and feed you. Our family is continuing to trust in God these past few days especially, cause we have run out of money and are no longer using our government assistance we usually use. Yet, despite not having much, God continues to make paths out of deserts and provision out of the scraps we have. He provided a way yesterday and today! Yesterday's blessing was from my second eldest brother's friend who bought the family Little Ceasars after finding out we didn't have dinner, and today, one of our Aunts sent $200 to our mom through PayPal or something. So we were able to eat a full meal today at dinner time. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path." God is beyond good, Gabby! Don't worry about ANYTHING in this life, because Father knows, and that's enough for me. - I Love How God Works: Ying-Ying

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jan 11, 26 at 12:08am

Keep stunting on the haters man

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WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jul 12, 25 at 7:25pm

I also read kawaii when I bought it lol

breadgirl @breadgirl

Jul 12, 25 at 6:54pm

i read "lechon kawaii" and was like: 'oh, moe food... huh..' ...i need better glasses (^_^;)

WillWorkForIsekai @willworkforisekai

Jun 23, 25 at 6:21am

Comick website is superior thumbs up

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Jun 23, 25 at 4:18am

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