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@gaybunbun I don't think other people don't wanna hear your problems or why you're depressed, and if they really don't wanna you should think about looking for new people. I guess it's that you don't wanna be a burden, even that wouldn't be the case. Easy talk for someone with kinda a similiar problem - lol. Not sure what your reasons are for darkening your mood. For me it is when I can think too much. I love life, but I hate the world and, well ye, thinking is no good for me. I'm kinda clever and that sucks -.-

I don't think I'm hard to date tbh., it may sound arrogant, but I brighten up most peoples life who are with me. You can count on me all time, I'm funny, loyal, optimistic(99%), honest(99%), good looking ofc(lol), etc., etc. in general: I make ppl Happy. Here comes the Problem(1%): It may feel closed off for my partner. I don't like telling people that I know, how I feel and how my real mood is... kinda wearing a mask most of the time so others won't worry... being pitied is kinda gross, even if I know it's totally normal and should be fine. I also prefer the mood being good and funny than being pulled downside. I'm doing rather fine, but sometimes it get's f*cking lonely and that can't be hidden. In those moments I can literally see the questionmarks popping in their faces and here begins the trouble: the facade get cracks and I don't like to share my thoughts. No one is always the cool funny guy, we all have our problems, but for some it's easier, for other harder to talk about it. Maybe that's the wrong topic, cause it comes after the dating is done and a relationship has started, but I kinda felt like it's related.