Shizuki Okabe

Happy 4th/Independence Day, my lovelies! I have wifi today due to a neighbor, so I thought to come check in on everyone and see how y'all are doing. I'm sorry to hear about your tabby passing away @yuuzora and the fires/heatwave you've had to survive through, but I'm happy you're still here fighting and got to enjoy a nice BBQ after a rough time ^^. Don't be worried about me over here though! My family and I are doing just fine in this heat (fans and ac are on constantly)– heck! We've been sitting outside in this weather to work on our tans XD, but today was rainy and we've been having fun with the neighbors watching fireworks. As for food though, God has truly been faithful and has provided a way for our mom to buy what we need daily, as well as using our neighbors kindness to help us even though they don't know we need it. We enjoy a delicious polish sausage hotdog, Mac and cheese with French fries for dinner today! @healthy_walrus Thank you, my dearest knight. I pray your days continue to be blissfully quiet and hope against hope that your work load will become at least somewhat lighter than what you said you've experienced lately. While the bots may have become bold in my absence, I have the most dedicated of people still here who fight on my behalf to keep us free from these bodyless beings. <3 @sakurakiss It's also been a bit strange not to log in everyday, even if it's just to momentarily check on everyone. Thank you for the well wishes! I have been trying to do better at self-care...and it's definitely a process, but I'm nowhere near being in a slump like how I was in the past, so one step at a time, y'know? I'm sure you have finished organizing things with your aunt? It sounds relaxing, I like doing stuff like that ‐ but then again, I'm someone who finds almost anything relaxing XD. I love you very much and miss you too, Kura-Chan. <3———————— ———————————————————————————— @gabriel_true I still don't have wifi, my dearest Gabby, but I am very touched that you all miss me so dearly. Like, I do believe that all of you love me and care for me...but it's so surreal that there are people out there that genuinely miss me so much, y'know? And miss what I have to say too, whether it's just randomly talking or me having my sappy/encouragement moments, cause I don't think I'm someone that's the most eloquent person or even the one that has anything of genuine substance to say...in real life I have trouble finding my words just like my mama, but I tend to write letters when I can't say everything I want to, which is probably why I find it easier to write to everyone the way I do here, those are my genuine thoughts and deepest feelings towards ALL of you: to be happy as one can be in a world like ours and to be prosperous in all that you do. Now, this message will be long, but oh well! As for your recent blessings ‐ I'm so very happy to hear that the LORD God has provided for you! I always pray that He takes care of my friends just as He has done this family of mine, so whenever I log in to see or hear you guys being suddenly provided for or just finding peace where you are in life, it truly touches me because it's like God is reminding me He hears me through you all <3. I also don't think you're trying to garner sympathy...and even if so, I don't think it's all too bad? Sometimes you need to be vulnerable and just want to have someone understand, which isn't an issue, I'm just thankful that I apparently seem to be that person for a lot of you here. I think you are absolutely deserving of it, simply because of the fact you aren't seeming to be prideful about this sudden gift. Trust me...I understand how you can feel unworthy- and in a way, all of us technically are (not saying it to be a downer), as that's the whole story of the Bible: we sin greatly and all take, take take, but it ultimately isn't us who chooses who is deserving of what, it's God's decision. Maybe He trusts you to receive such a great financial blessing rn, which is a very exciting thing! Especially as my own family have been waiting our whole lives to be financially stable - but, God still has us in a season of trusting Him, so it's what we will do cause one day He'll move on our finances. As for you not living up to the man other's think you are or should be - I understand ^^. But everyone is like that. I say that not to make less of how you feel, but to remind you you are never alone in how you feel. I too have sometimes felt like a fraud cause people always have seen me as a cheerful person who loves unconditionally- but the reality is that I'm just human like anyone else. ALL credit to how I care and love the way I do is to God and Jesus, because on my own I am just as bitter and angry as the next human lol. I've just always prayed for God to keep my heart and to give me the willingness to want to be kept, which is the key thing about our relationship with Christ: willingness. So, I pray you are ALWAYS willing to grow better as we all are through Christ Jesus, Gabby, and just know that this blessing was meant for YOU. Also, thank you. As I've said before...I never truly think that what I say is important or holds weight on other people's hearts, but I'm grateful that whatever it is that I've said has been able to be encouraging or helpful to you. I'm so happy you got this monetary blessing and I pray all my other friends bank accounts are just as blessed as yours has been, I love you very much!