I have to agree with sapphireyes, it doesn't matter how bad you want a relationship you should be able to like yourself and have fun even while not in a relationship. In other words you shouldn't need some person to make you happy. Doesn't mean I don't know how you feel I mean really I've gone on dates but technically been single my whole life. I've never had a "girlfriend" and it sometimes frustrates me, makes me mad, and I do wish I had some one to hold, kiss and tell sweet things to, to be with but I don't need them that's for sure. I don't need anyone but my friends, family, and at least for me God (I know that might not be true for everyone but that's a talk for a different day so lets not get on a big religious debate K?) Even then I don't feel like I necessarily need my friends or family to carry me, or to make me me, I only need me. You come into this world alone and you die alone too so if you can't trust yourself to make you happy how can you trust anyone else to make you happy?

After all of this I've finished Highschool, Got a Grant to Attend the College of my choice (With Aid to transfer to a University), Study on a regular basis, and dropped my dead beat "acquaintances" I had called my friends, and move towards a better future. What I'm getting at is that don't complain so much and look at what you have now. Also on a side note it took 6 hours of straight typing to write this entire message. It was way too long to post in one message so I had to put it into sections.

I never introduced myself. Though, I was only on for a bit then stopped... So never had the chance! If you've spent as much on anime as I have or more... Props. Cause I've spent A LOT. Some of it I buy after already having seen it. Most of it hasn't yet been watched! And that's because Netflix has/had plenty. I've watched most of what's on there so far that seems interesting. I'm saving what I own for no Internet/Netflix runs out time. Bahaha And I'm 25, FL, and kinda lonely. I deal with it but would love people to talk to. And hope someday I'll find a pretty anime lady for meeee. Bahaha. I honestly really only need one awesome close friend (or more than close). So if you want plenty of attention, you may just get it. :0

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