Confessions

@Tea I mentioned that, because Blood seems to be sexually aroused by being abused by Maria. I do understand your fascination of the topic, though. For me it's mostly the emotional and psychological aspects of it: what it does to people and why. It might also be due to the fact that I consider myself to be demisexual, so sadly for all of you on MO, I won't have any sexual desires towards any of you unless we really connect and we actually get to meet and date for a while. The confession here would be: I'm talking a lot about sex, but actually have no desire to just have sex. It is the intimacy of it that I want. It boils down to this: I don't want sex with anyone right now, but I want to want to have sex with someone again

I confess that time and time again I find myself craving to add Siru to my friend list, because he's freaking awesome, but than I remember... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I already added him almost a year ago. I would almost defriend him just to send him a friends request again :D

@Tea I love how at this point nobody can reply to that funny reference to the lyrics of that cool song in fear of it being about them. Well, shit

I came back to 77 notifications lmao. Also yes, sex with emotional connection is absolutely amazing. I've only been with one person but I can't imagine sex without the emotional connection.

Imagine it with someone who you truly love and who truly loves you. Imagine it with someone who you don't just "feel" a connection, but truly trust with your life and never, not even once question them or they you when the word love is spoken. Imagine it with someone who is selfless and you're being selfless for thier pleasure. Imagine a connection that let's you know you both are working and playing in unison. Imagine...That's a fun word, isn't it?

Oh, it's different when there's no doubt. True love is much better when it's reciprocal. Kid, You'll be fine. My last relationship had so many ups and downs(Lots of downs. I was a big dummy for dealing with 90% of the bs.XD),but my current one is so much better. Funny thing is, you're first love, you'll never truly forget (Last one wasn't my first love, but it was no where near what I have now.), but you most certainly can find love again and believe it or not, it can be much better. Also, it would seem that you must love this place, because you haven't left yet. ;P