Confessions

I confess that a while ago I was thinking about life, where I'm at and all of that and I realized that my ex whom a lot of people here know put me through a lot of shit but despite all of that I'm really glad that I met her. It was the best eight months of my life and when I think about where I am now, the people I know, the fact I met one of the best friends who is now a brother to me, the fact I have more self-confidence about myself, and if confidence to meet people IRL off this website or off other apps as I'm going to very soon, it's all because of her. Granted it wasn't all from good moments. But I wouldn't have met a lot of people that I'm friends with now if I didn't go looking for places to talk during my dark moments during all this shit she was putting me through. Like the apps that I'm currently on, I'm positive I never would have either come across them or joined them if I didn't meet her, I might have seen them but I had no reason or would not have ever had a reason to join them. I realize that it's all pretty much just random chance and decisions made on those random occurrences but those opportunities never would have presented themselves if I had not met her, I would not have had the confidence at this point if I had not met her. I was pretty much stationary which is why I am confident that none of this would have happened by this point without her and now I move more on my own. I still have a long ways to go as a person but I just realized that is all thanks to her and I am extremely grateful to her for that

Best friend has a girlfriend now~~I'm happy for him~meanwhile slightly intellectually lonely, but that's fine if he isn't as intellectually curious as he used to be http://wx4.sinaimg.cn/large/87d788b2gy1g4gh8rlt4tg205k05kaiv.gif

@Enki Ah, the struggle. I've lost so many friends cause they got into a relationship. I hope if I ever get into one I'll still be cool.

You just have to be able to balance out your life and not lose yourself inside a relationship. It's great to ghost friends for a week or so but you have to achieve balance again soon after or else it leads to problems.

As long as my acquaintances/friends are happy, I'm happy just to be a witness of their happiness.To some extent, I feel relieved now cuz I once rejected him~Now that I share tons of commonalities with that person, relationship isn't center of our lives~http://wx2.sinaimg.cn/large/87d788b2ly1g4ggnu79mzg206y084qv5.gif