Confessions

@baka That's just how it goes with love and ex's normally. It does suck though

@baka I know it sucks but hey as long as you stay a better person than me who when you get in those down moments until you end up picking yourself up again for good you just go around and do sexual shit of various natures not even carrying if the person is taken or not also you can just temporarily dull the pain of your own problems even though you hate people who do that shit

I very much have to be in a mood to talk to certain people. It's like food that you don't always want to eat. Some people are like well-seasoned jerk chicken. I could eat it anyday. And I will admit it's weird to compare people to food.

Soooo..... a friend of mine that I haven't talked with much for a while and had sex with one or twice just got off the phone with me. She's changed a good bit and I just found out that she's been well basically in a very secretive sex community that spans across a few different apps. I won't really get into all of the details but she basically just decided to try to help me get over my breakup issues bye trying to invite me into the community and I told her to just go ahead and do it even though I don't expect anything to come of it but she thinks that if I really actually try then I'll definitely get some pussy as she put it. I'm still trying to wrap my head around how much she's fucking changed but I also just don't know what to think about all this shit in general. Life is really fucking weird and you never know what's going to happen, like really what the fuck

@baka True though I usually don't join these kind of places expecting to actually put forthb effort and my friend actually described it as more of "a cult" with calls that you aren't allowed to miss and shit so idk what I'm in for. I've been in sex communites before but not ones like this one sounds like. I have no idea what to expect other then it's possible I'll get some though highly unlikely.