Confessions

I confess that I sometimes forget to respond to people sometimes, when I drop by here.

To those, I've started to distance myself once I was close with. I've started to distance myself not because I hate you or stop caring about you. I do still care and is a good friend to me where we could really connect to one another. I am doing it for a good reason, to protect you and myself. I have felt that there was a need to do so and so that it would not hurt you even more in the future. I have strongly felt that I was the obstacle in your path and decided to remove myself. To friend 1. Some of the words you have said during your frustration have engraved me deeply. It was understandable as you were feeling all kind of negative emotions at the time. However, saying that I have no use at that moment made me felt that you were trying to use me in the future. It may or may not have been your intention to say that to me but I felt really unpleasant to hear that. I also didn't want you to feel all that stalkerish feeling you have felt before, so I decided to disappear from you all together to stop you from feeling that way. I was able to talk to you recently trying to be all sneaky and all, but apparently, I forgot to conceal all the profile information and was blown out of cover pretty quickly without realizing. I did that because I felt everything I post on public kind of making it look like there was a connection and feels like it's reflecting my emotion/mind. I think I have gotten myself a pretty bad habit in the way I post on forums. Another reason is where I felt that we are getting too close... To my second friend, I felt like I was your obstacle, so I decide to do that. Forgive me. To my third friend, I do like talking to you, but I am keeping my boundaries. I am cheering you on :) To my really close friend(to me anyway), I might be giving you another emotional attack, sorry. Imagine what all of the things I have said in the past was the truth all along??? I don't know, you won't believe me anyway since I have become a boy who cried wolf...