Confessions

Taking the opportunity to confess here, knowing my partner isn't around and lol, I feel like I'm a drag in this relationship. It's quite bad for me because he's a professional now, basically a grown adult whereas I'm stuck in deadly Venezuela and having less and less motivation to keep studying my career in here. I feel like in this relationship I'm going to be a burden, which as most that know me, are sure that I'm not this type of person. It makes me sad knowing that it'll probably take me a lot before I'm on the same level as he is :( In other news, the US Embassy will finally open doors again in Venezuela this month's 17th so wish me luck t.t

In other other news... If he loves you, it's not because you're as "successful" as he is, it's because he wants you to succeed in all of your endeavors(Big and small.). Relationships are about being a team, not in a competition.

Heartbreaks don't only come once in a while, you get heart broken when you have high hopes and dreams about something one minute, and in just the flash of a second you're let down. And all that you wished for comes crashing down so you have nothing else to look forward to in the morning. The one person who made your life worth living for is gone and leaves you with nothing but memories, no sign of caring, sympathy and just a memory of their face. When you can do nothing but watch them walk away and no matter how much you ask for them to return, they continue walking. When you're so used to them being a part of your daily life so when they're gone you feel nothing but emptiness and that you're incomplete. Like you can't breathe without them being beside you or having them there with you. How they no longer belong to you & you're left answering your own questions about what went wrong. How it feels wrong that you're not on your own and you're missing a part of your life. Like you've let yourself down because the one person you lived for is no longer with you. Like when you care for someone so much it hurts to care anymore than you already do. But when they're gone the pain just can't compare to how much it hurt when you had the one person, how it hurts to the point where you don't know what the point is to live anymore. To get up in the morning and go on with your life but at night it's hard for you to sleep because you're so used to having communications with that person before bed. And when you finally fall asleep you don't wanna wake up because you've realized that now your dreams are so much better than reality.Because before you met this person, you dreamed about all that you ever wanted and when you found them, all your dreams came true. And reality was better than your dreams. And now that they're gone you realized that you're right back where you started because now your heart is broken, dreams are better than reality.

Truth is.... I'm still in love with a guy who will never love me again. It was a romance from high school. His name was Nathan and I really loved him so much that my heart physically hurt for him. He cheated and got my best friend at that time pregnant. I know that was a prick move on his part. So why do I still love him? The hell if I know. I miss the way our lips locked perfectly... and his kisses gave me goosebumps. 2 years ago as I grocery shopped.... I saw him and our eyes met. His blue eyes had a certain sadness about them now... It might of been in my head but I swear he whispered "I still love you". He then walked away quickly and I haven't seen him sense. I force myself to move on because he has a child with her. Although my heart wants him... it can never be. Maybe one day I'll find a sweet prince who can make me forget about that bastard. But until then.... I'm here broken.

dont forget about the east coast meet up guys its this year and i guess i confess i swore off sweets for a few days and just had some soda today back swearing off though >w>!! gotta stay strong and get healthy >w>!

We don't need all the sugar, but it sure is pretty sweet. Got tons of ice cream and candy at home...Im fat;_; but happy.:)

@midas did your family eat them before you could xD? @yass yeah, just its sooo goooood ;w;