Don't know where this goes...don't know where I go...

@Talamar, thats an awful story. Im sorry to hear about that! @cant, well only my best friend knows about half of what goes through my head, but I still have my pride, so no-one will ever know everything. Theres no need to pay for help. I wouldnt. It wouldnt do me any good because Im stubborn. I know whats wrong and what I should do about it, but I cant. Sounds simple but it isnt, Im sure you know what I mean! Making others happy is fairly easy if youre attentive enough. Im an observer. I watch people. I gain knowledge and information without them even realising it so I can address their needs without ever inconveniencing them. Probably sounds creepy but thats never my intention. I see a lot more than people really realise. This makes me pretty good ant knowing what people need. But because I spend all my time thinking about others happiness, theres no looking at myself. You can look at me and my life and say Im happy, but thats the wrong word. Content would be more appropriate. You shouldnt separate yourself from others. We like to think we can be on our own. Hell, I am for the most part. If it wasnt for the internet and places like this Id have very few friends to speak of!

Weather here Stinks rofl.. always raining.. Silly WA Weather.. and no ya did not offend I felt bad thinkin maybe I sounded preachy rofl. Just thought I would share somethin Similar so ya might cheer up and think hey their is always light at the end of tunnel or gold at the other end of the rainbow. Hokey I know hehe but alas Is who I am hehe

Not having major complaints is easy, but the heart wants what the heart wants! I dont think I really NEED a relationship per se, but do I want one? Definitely. Why? Not just because its better than being alone but I imagine like yourself, I have a lot to give for the right person. I personally love being in love. Its quite possibly the best feeling ever to me (maybe even better than an orgasm, but the Jurys still out on that one...). Shes out there (or he, since who knows, maybe you might end up wanting a little of the captain inside you). Perhaps you should just throw caution to the wind and put yourself out there some more? I know youre a funny guy, we trade amusing words at each other frequently enough, so I want to see you succeed!