Dark thoughts

I always feel like I'm the problem even when I don't mean to be and it makes me feel singled out every time and it seriously hurts my view of myself sometimes - maybe I need a change.

It broke It breaks Mind tussles It tussles How dark has it gone, how bright is it It’s neither You know neither Just the unveiling that will always be hidden. Just so many pieces missing out them back together. What I see is secondary to the tertiary. Things going awry more then they should, things not functioning as is, all very much brighter then it might seem cause most see in blindness. The world feels off, that’s very true to me.

My mind is very much a maze. I myself feel like I cannot be given a chance to enter anymore. The last thought I had was the lowering of the elevator to the inner workings of that of the house of pale. Many houses changing in number and many that come out as mobs. Hearing before I left down there whilst chained about one’s self purging Simultaneously had thoughts about being in the same place but in an above room, in an unknown room, stuck in a loop of of choosing between choosing between someone under a desk, as well as seeing that same person through a broken window in the room across looking like they’re about to explode. After the loop concluded the issue was never resolved about choosing. The indecisiveness won and what was there had ended. I was not a sleep. Though I do have memories of feeling off. Now I am off, very much so. Before, my daydream would make me experience a pseudo death killed by that of something representative of harvest and judgement. Anytime something not right would trigger at the end that same idea. Now it is less frequent, just darkness in my head. Things are not clear. I do not see the respective cycle of death anymore in my head that brought brightness. Just an empty head, sometimes 0 thoughts.

yuzuru is that you https://data.whicdn.com/images/291984094/original.gif

maggots are very interesting last night i thought about what would happen if i cut the feet off of a crane fly would it still be able to stand? or would it be like cutting human feet off?