I'm slowly losing it...

Well, I'm so sick of being a goddamned joke of God to laugh at! I literally might be the only person in my friend's group who has no significant other... Nobody has had a crush on me, nobody has ever asked to date me. I did do a few relationships, which all ended in a week and ended up a break-up, which weren't nasty thank God. However, my friends, who mainly consist of those with special needs, have girlfriends/boyfriends and I am literally the only single guy in the group... I feel like I was born to be a joke to God. I just want to be happily married and have a family, even though I know I am still 19. I literally resulted to Online Dating to feel the happiness. And yet that isn't showing any bit of success. I can't hold down a serious job, I am a hygienic disaster, I don't have any happiness, and I drink orange soda like an alcoholic... Not to mention I also never get out of my house because I have nothing to do! Why am I such a damned joke to God?! Someone please explain what I should do... I just hate my life.

Never hate yourself, enjoy yourself. https://i.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/001/102/657/858.gif Your like me, but younger. I went through everything, that your currently going through. The thing is that life sucks. Life can make others super happy, and the most innocent it's toy. You can't become Life's toy. Smile, even if its fake. If Life wants you to be miserable, don't show it weakness. Weakness invites Life's friends Depression, and Loneliness. My tip to surviving is just to relax, and make friends. Eventually one of those friends will fall in love with you, perhaps you love this person as well. You can't have friends, if your miserable. That's the reality of the matter. So here is a bro hug: https://d34zzkuru6phz2.cloudfront.net/media/full/2017/04/30/HorribleSubs_Seikaisuru_Kado_-_04_720p.mkv_snapshot_04.32_2017.04.30_09.17.08.jpg I wish you well.

WHOA! Okay mate calm down and take a breath. You aren't a joke, you are a person capable of going and doing great things. First off you are holding this negativity in and you need to cut that shit out because whether you intend to or not I have seen it in other posts besides this one and I suspect that you project that energy out in your own life along with the low self-esteem and other bad vibes that come with it. Life is a ride and sometimes it takes turns you won't like. So the last thing a person is gonna want to do is sign on for a relationship with someone who is miserable. That aside, you cannot be placing your self worth and happiness on others. This might be hard to hear but your happiness is in your own hands. Let me repeat that: YOUR HAPPINESS IS IN YOUR OWN HANDS. Having trouble holding down a job? Sit down with yourself and ask or maybe call your bosses and ask. Ask what made you not able to hold those down? what did you mess up on and how can you go about improving it so that you can then have a great and steady work. You might have to go to school or just work on yourself. Work on your hygiene as well. Your clothes, your surroundings, your body. these are all things within your own control. You need to value yourself. But it's awfully difficult to see yourself as someone of value if you allow yourself to live in unhygienic areas. Think about how you project yourself. If I go to your room and look around without seeing you what kind of person might I assume you are? Same with how you dress and how you carry yourself. Start eating better. You don't need to go vegan or give up sugars and sweets and junk food completely but start looking into healthy options. Maybe think about meal prep as there are plenty of affordable ways to have healthy and delicious food all week. Being a man who knows how to cook is a bonus. Sign up for a gym membership or work out at home. If you want I can recommend some great tips and routines that'll help. Getting yourself in shape will improve your focus, help your mind be able to better manage stress, make you look sexier for the ladies, and the discipline you put into it will help to invigorate you because you can look yourself in the mirror and say "I did this. I am kind of awesome!" (: But it isn't just physical. Sit back and meditate on what it is you want. What do you want? Find your purpose. What kind of life do you want to lead? And what all would you need to do to lead that life? Don't blame God, because real or not you are in control your own actions. Sure you can't the actions of others but most assuredly you dictate how YOU respond to it. So do that. Go out. Maybe just for a walk or a drive to clear your head. Sit down and think about what kind of life you want to lead. Clean out your room and area if it's dirty, start taking pride in how you carry yourself, think about your shortcomings both on your own and by consulting your previous employers, And then you should address them. It will be another brag for future jobs about how you worked on yourself. Go on and work out, eat better, treat your body like the beautiful construct of stardust that it is and find your potential. Do this and you'll find that you've so much in this world you want to do that you'll always have a reason to go out. You're 19 for fucks sake. The amount of potential you have is INSANE. Work on yourself and you could be this in shape, well-off, passionate, driven man on his purpose whose capable of being happy on his own and within himself. You'll cultivate this awesome life. And trust me(TRUST ME), women will notice and want to be a part of it.

I'm a do-things type of guy so I hope in some way this helps. Of course it also always helps to have someone to talk with about all this man

https://.youtube.com/watch?v=e9-3RZkzpwM "I am still 19" Stop there and breath, my friend. Breath. Want to change? Do it. Don't count on other's to move you when you have two good legs of your own. Live and learn, that's all you can do. Push yourself out of your comfort zone and be free.

Hey, until recently, I was the only person at my work who didn't have a spouse or girlfriend. Even the guy who always jokingly put himself down has a girlfriend now(and I'm not sure, but I think he might be planning to propose to her soon) I put myself out there, and now, I've got the most amazing girlfriend I could ever ask for. You really just gotta be open and don't try too hard.

You have at the very least like 15 years left before the "I can't get a gf" be a real worry. For the way you speak, even if you get a gf now, it won't be the magical solution for happiness. Do you really want to offer that s/o a broken dependant partner that has to be taken care of? That sounds like a whole bunch of new problems. You are ONLY 19. People above have already said plenty of advice. There are many ways to get your life together. Get a hobby, get ripped, collect stamps, be pround of yourself for learning a new language of whatever.....i don't fucking know, you have plenty of time to look for something. Just be proactive and don't let the years just pass by. Learn to be AT LEAST ok with yourself... I'll avoid saying something like "happy with yourself" because I'm not exactly the role model of peak self esteem rofl