Are you happy, empty or sad and want to share it?
That is the reason behind this post.
So don't be shy and let's get this thing started.
I feel peaceful..Just now, I realized the fact that I'm a descendant of Yandi and Huangdi! JK..
I feel peaceful mainly because today is as ordinary as other days..I arranged my own free time..Watching anime,reading articles,drawing,talking to Auntron and other contacts, thinking, listening to music and lurking on MaiOtaku.
I'm not even sure anymore, sad maybe, or just lonely.
I feel like I'm constantly on auto-pilot and I'm not actively engaged in my own life, feels like life is just passing and I need something euphoric. Feel like I need to ride a roller-coaster or something
pretty empty, but content. Really wish I could progress my relationship with my dad... the one person in the world I honestly love unconditionally and care for deep enough to FEEL EMOTIONS FOR.... yet he's broken my trust which I never expected to happen and is so stubborn and stuck in his own ass he can't seem to drop his "emotionally abuse" facade or at the least treat me like a grown man. bring him to the store to go shopping, spend $300 on groceries for the house. carry and set up all the shit and he still finds a way to belittle me to the cashier.. orz
like a tird, i drank a six pack and a bottle of wine last night. now im going to quit
Kind of lonely. Almost like I'm stuck in my life. I'm driving down the same road looking for the on ramp to the interstate, but I just can't find it.
I feel I'm going to do something(somewhat excited) (sending a snail mail to a fellow knowledge-seeker whom I have known for more than 16 months. A small bookmark is enough.) and now I'm thinking what to write in the letter.My English handwriting...*sighs...
"Sometimes we seek out our knowledge. Sometimes our knowledge finds us. Whichever betides you, may this aid you."
Just off the top of my head.
I'm feeling pretty happy. Went out with a girl earlier whom I'm speaking to, might turn to more but probably not tbh, but we'll see.