How does one be themselves

It’s not in my nature to lol, I’m very much a person that cares about everything. Then again I’m a very devious person sooooo I leave that to whoever to guess XD

Tbh it’s fun to talk to people you just talk and then leave if they don’t matter that much, can’t be bagged down by everyone I guess lol. Then again idk about anyone else but I h8 small talk but I do enjoy deeper convo a lot of ppl are exauhsting in general

All I got to say is that you should just try to practice talking to yourself in the mirror or even have a picture of someone while talking in the mirror so when you talk to the person you won't feel so scared. Or even work hard on trying to talk to someone face to face like your family or your parents or you dream your relatives so you'll just have to think about them but in the ways of someone that you know outside of the family.

The only way i'm talkative sadly is when I've had a few drinks and feel comfortable. I don't do that very often or have a reason to though.

i am an extrovert, but i prefer to live an introverted lifestyle coz i find most humans boring.. So i am an introverted extrovert. And so even though i have no problem talking to people irl, i prefer talking online.