Vent

Me: "Man, chainsaw man is a really good anime, huh?" Friend: "Yeah but *drops biggest fucking spoiler in the entire series*" Friend: "Oh wait, you read the entire fuckin manga like me didn't you? I didn't spoil the entire fuckin anime for you, did I?" https://media.tenor.com/777c5_jRXLQAAAAC/dead-inside.gif Me: "I'm never talking about anime with you again."

Feels like I have to setup an appointment to hangout with friends these days. What happened to being spontaneous and willing? Well... guess I'll have another night to myself. *caresses my new rtx 4090* "it's just you and me my new expensive and fire hazard of a friend.... I'll eventually get a nice corsair or cablemod adapter. Would you like that? Would that please you?" *fans ramp up* "It's okay, it's okay... people might judge you for being so big and heavy but you know what? That's okay... I'll get a bracket too." Yeah, it's getting that bad if I'm talking with my hardware. Judge me if you must, but at least spending money on pointless upgrades fills the black hole that's in my heart.

This is the most ghetto ass, jerry rigg thing ive seen from a million dollar company not wanting to spend money on new equipment, meanwhile they spending at least 60K for international inventory lol. A automated roller is nothing compared to all the money they spend yet I gotta do some BS like this lol

Im sick, its 3 am and I just cut off a flirtation/situationship thats been going on for 2 months. Feels like I cut a hole in my sides just from doing it but I think it was the right thing to do. I'll start keeping myself busy again, exercise still and isolate myself till im back at 100%.

How people of conformity see diversity: Shaun Murphy from the U.S. version of The Good Doctor. https://youtu.be/-EYP_O72soM?si=8Sz3TgtkYTiFlv8i How people of diversity see conformity: Doyle from Slingblade. https://youtu.be/Jey29FY1KkE?si=WI5SbEgFqzoZ3rLc

It's tough being a friend. You try to empathize and be reasonable. Sometimes your friend doesn't get along with another friend and doesn't want you to associate with the other. Even if you want to give the other person a chance. Sometimes a friend has a disagreement with someone and instead of reinforcing their ideas that cause the disagreement you try to help them understand the other persons side but then the the friend thinks you're against them. I don't think friendship is a rigid loyalty to someone it's more about being there for them. Yet a lot of us want to be rigid and stick to our groups. To me the groups have little value and just confine ourselves. Maybe our inability to befriend a wide variety of people are what lead to more extreme examples of human engagement like warfare. https://media1.tenor.com/m/SG0YhQcldrkAAAAC/zero-two-thinking.gif