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@chiarichibi LOL seems like you can't really get a moments peace around here. Plus the smell of your coffee woke me up. But alright I will go to sleep, just for you though!

I basically had to talk to my brother after he had a mental breakdown. As a big brother it was kinda hard to sort of be that sense of guidance for him and after realizing how fucked up my own life is the advice i gave him im like on the fence about. Like i told him to use every obstacle in your life as an opportunity to be stronger but like my own foundations are crumbling under the weight of all the stuff going on in my life. Like here i am feeling like im drowning in work and full of despair with my life because i feel like i have all the answers. I feel like i can solve everything but i dont have the power to do it. Im always so close but so far. My life is always dictated by those around me im just lucky enough that i dont suffer but not lucky enough where im at peace. Life for me has been miserable since 2020 After my deplpyment nothing has made sense. I lost all passion all motivation for everything i once had in my life and like here i am at work literally getting work dumped on me and im like i cant keep doing this i need to change my job but i cant even do that because im not in the right time period for it. I cant leave the military and i cant change my job and im like nothing makes sense anymore.

I know that feeling all to well but I was the younger brother giving advice/direction for my older brother. What I've always took away was sometimes you just need to have the right words or point them in the right direction. Perhaps hearing them being said to others will help remind ourselves to do that as well. And if not at least we were able to help them. I mean I'm a sage like God for all my friends relationships and I'm single, don't frett over being the guy at the fork point people which way to go. You will one day take your path too.

I am quite honestly counting down the days until i leave the military. The fact i have to bite my tongue and listen to people make poor decisions is infuriating. If im telling you we have too much work to do and ur response is "dont complain i gave you the chance to go into the back office and handle it" that doesnt solve anything the workload is still there but now im pulling another body in an already stretched thin environment each time i need to get the work done. I dont even have the rank to challenge it either so i have to sit there and listen to this idiot and his matter of fact attitude like the problem all along was me getting time to go in the back office and complete paperwork. I showed up today 30 mins late as i was allowed and there was a line of 10 people waiting to be checked in. It was only my coworker by himself. That goes to show you the workload is already strenuous for one person. Because patients are unpredictable and want something each time they come up. To add admin work ontop of that and then add more and more as time goes on and say oh but we need it this way when there are people with more free time that you took those tasks from to giev it to us......omg i wanna leave so bad. Then they wonder why morale is so low. You guys are incompetent.

MO had its peak in 2020 (covid brought a lot of new users and drama). I honestly hope we stay with the regular users we have atm, it´s a really small and nice community