Vent

I don't think the reality that I'm jobless has set in yet, I'm expecting Monday to be tough. I know its definitely affecting my sleep though.

I'm working on updating my resume, I also looked at a few openings. Kinda wanted to decompress a bit before jumping into applying, still a bit hurt.

Russian I said this on Friday, where you been. Sobo thanks, it definitely wasnt a fun experience, I felt awful... still do I guess.

@theghoulieleader Same here. Battling tight budget, constant family errand caretaking (especially supporting my mother and my big sister) and preferring to be single (if I don't find a good native Japanese woman). Most American women are too shallow and don't match my likes and dislikes. But if any did, I refuse to see my family and others in my area react to any of them whether positively or negatively.

@theghoulieleader I'd rather have other things than sex. Even a Five-Star Italian chef in Italy said he would rather cook than have sex. If I marry someone non-Japanese, then my main passion won't be that fitting. Most women around me are same old same old. TikTok, SnapChat, Desperate Housewives, country music, charity support, yadda yadda yadda. I refuse to relate to ones that like to be normies, especially ones that smoke, vape, dip, drink, wear tattoos/piercings, eat mostly leading brands, support Republicans, etc., etc. Older generations call me either an adorable angel or an immature brat, while younger generations are either elitists (or elitist bastards) while considering me a fucking inferior retard, especially those who are not religious. Some look at my main passion as something worth putting to an end and be like most people. Even though I've been studying Japanese language since 2014, but been passionate of Japan since 1989 while respecting America more, people react to me like: https://i.imgur.com/OOpgiRZ.jpg https://i.imgur.com/OlYPNLn.jpg Some native Japanese women hates when anyone calls me or any others a weeaboo for even learning about Japanese culture whether they like anime or not. One random woman from Japan responded quote: " I don’t understand what’s wrong with your handwriting that looks like a foreigner’s tbh. I can tell my writing could be worse than yours even I’m Japanese lol my friend’s also is not as well as yours even she can speak Japanese fluently like us " My teacher was like: "Well, so what? My student (me) has a big heart on Japan."