Mental Health

I was locked up a couple times when I tried to end it as a teen. Mental health is difficult. I would never end my life now but the main thing that keeps me from it is just knowing it would hurt loved ones... not because I actually stopped wanting a way out. I thank you for being in such a difficult industry. I can imagine you have to have a mind of steel (my therapist actually cried when I told her about my childhood and early teens even though she read my file beforehand already. My telling it in a monotone voice and joking about it likely did not help) to work with nut jobs like me, hah. Thank you.

@anonmouse I'm not entirely sure what kind of sadness you're working with, but I'm grateful to have read this message. Life can be tough, and being okay with yourself is quite a challenge. Always remember: You do matter. ~ Total stranger, Jesper Thanks

The voices call me pure evil. Omegalol that's not gonna work no more I know how to validate my heart now. They can't make me view myself as pure evil and lose touch with my own heart anymore. Omegalol they pissed I'm still getting stronger neither narcissism or schizophrenia can stop God's plan and purpose for my life. The truth is I'm a walking success story. A testament to God transformative power. I'm divinely confined so the works of God can be shown through me and they big mad. But, I trust in my Heavenly Father Supreme Authority over the Earth and Creation. And, I thank him for Grace, Mercy, Favor, Protection, and Guidance. Bruh they didn't want me to see myself so bad. I know the voices and the devil mad and they hate me and the God I serve. I acknowledge my darkness and bring it into the light. There's a difference between being pure evil and having both light and darkness within. They can't fool me. They just want me to sink into despair that there's nothing good about me that everything I do is a abomination that I'm to ugly for God and others. Typical demon tactics. But, God gave me discernment to see through that. I'm passed the point of worrying about myself because my God has never failed me. Man I'm Up Big following Jesus. You just don't stop winning. All Glory be to you Jesus.