Death of perfect mom

Today I had to listen as a woman from Hospice Care told me the news that the only woman that I ever appreciated in my life died on the second of this month. I was told so late because they had the wrong number given to them and I only found out because I called in to see about moving her to another facility. This broke my heart and shattered my soul. She's been dead for days and I didn't even know it....Why does my heart hurt so much? I don't expect to find anyone who gives a damn here, but I do want her story to get out there for anyone who will listen.

im also so sorry there are lots of nice people here who are willing to listen i hope you feel better in time

Sorry to hear... I know there's nothing quite like losing a loved one, but just remember that who they were is also a part of you. In other words, she still lives on thru you. If you need to vent, vent, it's 100% understandable. You'll never forget her, but I doubt if she'd want you to hurt for the rest of your life. Hopefully you have people near you to talk to, even if you do, there are those who'll listen here as well, if need be.

wow man that sucks really bad even worse that you didnt even know about this. you couldnt even be there and you didnt even know...i also lost 3 family members in a span of a week so ik what your going through but nothing is worse than losing the one woman who cared about you no matter what and has been there since day one

Thanks everyone for listening to me, and your right Go. It really does suck. I have no girlfriend, no life and now no mother. What's worse is now my dad just got locked up today. What next? My brother is gonna die during training? Or is it gonna be me? My life has been nothing but crap for the last twenty years and still I have nothing to show for it. It really does seem like the end for me....

Notshy, It's never the end until you give up. Unfortunately, some people get dealt a bad hand in life, but all you can do is work with what you have. Life has a funny way of working out once you put your mind to it. It's not all peaches and cream, but you'll grow and hopefully become a stronger man because of it. I'm not going to say it's easy or "All wounds heal with time.", but you have to have the mindset that you're better than giving up. But, I'm sure you know this and are just venting, which is completely understandable.

Your gonna feel massive despair for a long time but, over time you will slowly heal. Remember the good times and never cave in life is nothing but ups and downs and im sure your mother wouldn't wanna see you sad. Im sorry for your loss, my condolences.

I'm very sorry to hear about that - I don't really know what to say other than please stay strong and keep those you hold dear closer to you than ever before. At times like this, being with the people you love and can confide in is incredibly important.