Death of perfect mom

Thanks guys. I'm really not feeling well. To tell you the truth, I really just want to be done with this life, with all of the pain and sadness. I just want all of it to disappear. I feel like a loser. No girlfriend, no job, no mother and now no father to get me anywhere. I fear that soon I'll lose my brother too. I'm just lame as hell man. I have no one to help me anymore and it sucks. I just want to go away and disappear. To just die and let it all turn to blackness, cause to be honest, anywhere is better than here right now...

I or anyone here can tell you that it will ve all right or that we're here for you, but if you haven't already, talk all this out with friends and family. Although, people here can help some, there's nothing like being able to hear and see. Also, even though I don't know you, I highly doubt you were raised to be a quitter. Got some muscle, I see. I'll bet that took a little work. Pain in life is kind of like that, it hurts, heals, hurts, heals, hurts...etc But, if you just give up, it will all be for nothing. Besides, if you have even one person who cares about you, be strong for them.:)