Random thoughts...

Playing D.va for the first time today https://youtu.be/4UM-92Mz1Fg Got tired of getting shredded by enemy pharah and our team running doomfist and stuff.

Dying my hair I'm tired of people thinking I'm a brunette but there's nothing wrong with that I can totally pull that off but I'm actually a f****** blonde but I guess you know it's pretty normal to become a dark blonde during winter time cuz there ain't no sun I just want to be a bright blonde for the New years I'm going to go to that bar tomorrow and I have me an adios m*********** to 2021 and hope 2022 is just a little tad bit better ...*shrugs* You know what I noticed the most around the holidays is single people wanting to be taken people really freaking fast it's always the same times around December it starts by midway between November though single people automatically jump in a relationship just cuz they're lonely and don't want to be alone for the holidays. Is this a little phase that your mind does I don't know why but everyone gets this lonely feeling right??or maybe itjustme.. like one moment they're super happy and you're all good about being single in your life and then all of a sudden you're hit with this lonely lonely feeling just comes out of nowhere and hits you in your chest and you're just like holy crap why am I feeling so lonely over sudden it just takes over your entire core your entire body is just in this lonely mood and all sudden it goes away within like a few days or two days and just like what was that and why is it always around this time of the year I feel it just as lonely feeling people say that they feel that little lonely feeling instantly around Valentine's Day but I haven't really felt that lonely feeling it's always either Christmas time or around New Year's when I feel this lonely feeling that just shoots at my chest and I'm in a good mood and a very happy mood and also and I just get hit with this arrow of lonely for no reason for no f****** reason. It's so annoying I hate this feeling and I know it's just a phase because of the holidays I guess but those people that get together with people just cuz they're lonely around this holidays usually break up around Valentine's Day some of them at least some of them can keep it past Valentine's Day but they usually break up like my friends they go through that phase all the time they get with this one guy for Christmas or New years you know they love him for a couple months the relationship last for a couple months and then around Valentine's Day either before or after they end up being single again it's so weird because I notice it happens all the time have all these group of friends and it always happens in the circle that I'm in it's not the same people either it's just different people it's like when they have this little lonely feeling they go out find a man have them for a while and then they break up around usually the exact same time or sometimes they last a little bit longer and they usually break up around March I don't know why I think I'm just overthinking now sorry

Just sounds like ppls crave or long for sth they can’t get. Its like craving to be in a relationship when you actually don’t want to. But since Xmas and Valentines days resolve around couples and relationships… well ppls tend to get jellous over said relationships and start to feel lonely and crave for that someone.

constant craving? https://youtu.be/oXqPjx94YMg

I like how my stomach was bugging me yesterday and I ate four peppers(three Thai red peppers and one jalapeno) but my stomach feels better today. Spice is life. https://c.tenor.com/Bb93-fhKNLgAAAAC/red-hot-chili-peppers-rhcp.gif