Late night banter

So.... it is currently 3:43am (pst) and I got off work around 10:00pm yesterday to came to my room to realize I lost my key. I sighed and walked over to the building that issues replacements so that I could finally get some freaking rest. I've just been sitting here staring at my computer screen wondering what the hell I should be doing right now. My friend recommended some Kpop music, so right now I'm listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uHYNOiiHkc lol. Oh my gosh, it is a really nice song. I kind of want to cry and let out feelings that I suppress throughout my days. All the sadness, anger, frustration that I bottle and can never share with anyone wants to be let go. I haven't done that in a long time. Rather, I haven't had the opportunity to do it recently. I just want to break down, be weak for a moment, and cry in someones arms. Just for a moment, and then look them in the eyes and tell them "Thanks" and go on with my life and how I normally carry myself. I'm not always a funny person. I do deal with shit that sucks. And I have no idea what this girl is singing in Korean, but it's on replay because of the nice melody and emo mood it's helping me retain. Anyways, I just wish I had an outlet every now and then. No diary, blog, or nighttime session of me shouting at the stars in the sky seem to be enough. So as I'm wallowing in solitude and late night deliriousness, I'll conclude these pointless words by saying thank you for reading this far. This is a side of me you'll only ever see once in a long while

Yeah, I have my fair share of those nights 9and days)...not fun. I've been having problems sleeping due to nightmares involving the past and present. I took a day trip to Maine yesterday, which was nice. However, the night before, I refused to sleep until this lovely otaku woman I'm still kinda interested in begged me to sleep for her. Maybe it's a sign that she'll open up to me more soon. In the meantime, I finally gave in and said I'd do it for her. I dunno what to think anymore either, k3nsh1n4life.

Wow i didnt know you also had those kind of moments man. well i hope now that time passed you feel better and i also wish i had a way to let out those kind of feelings man. i feel you and im with you. Stay strong