never fitting in...

Pun, Exactly. There is a time to show your heart, but first meetings may not be the best time.

@Panda Even though you change yourself some time to fit in with others more you still has a core part of you that does not change You still have a core part of you that does not change right?

@Panda Even though you change yourself some time to fit in with others more you still has a core part of you that does not change You still have a core part of you that does not change right?

yeah thats what i mean like deep down im still myself i just i do stuff to fit in. i've had friends who i can be myself completely with but thats super rare. i've only ever had 2 best friends and that was years back

@Panda As long as you don't change your core that is what is important. To whatever degree your personality on here maybe like your actual personality, you're OK in my book.

A number of my personality traits are in and of themselves conflicting. One example being out to a certain extent I would like people to enjoy having me and yet at the same time if it's something like working in a group I would rather just not be noticed or have nothing to do with other people and just work by myself.

i like working by myself for the simple fact that im super bossy and wanna be responsible for what i accomplish cause you can never count on people to get things done how you'd like it to be done. but i like being noticed by people even on here cause im such an attention whore and i will admit when im ignored it feels kinda bad

I wouldn't exactly say that on someone who really hates being ignored per se but when you're ignored on here it does seem to have a strange bite to it. I probably shouldn't be telling you this LOL but I think just about everyone on here likes to notice you LOL.

Side comment: you know what? I've pretty much just given up I'm trying to get my phone to stop capitalizing LOL. It's annoying but what's also annoying is going back to fix the capitalization every time and not really knowing if it actually does anything in the long run.