Mental Disorders

I m really happy someone actually replied to this:) And I stopped shamming myself for having those issues ;) There is no use in that! And I never experinced someone judge anyone for anything on this side so please feel free to start a topic about what ever you feel:D I feeel you so much! My parents started calling me "not normal" since I can think back . Sadly they were not on my side at all, they were not trying to help me,they only wanted to make me normal in their eyes. My mother started taking me to all kind of places when I was 9 , where they were checking my brain and making weird check ups, but they couldnt figure out whats wrong with me . This continued through years, were I spent a lot of times at hospitals and therapists. When I was 12 they "diagnozed" obsessive compulsive disorder. It didnt make any sense from the beginning, there was no freaking symptom for that, i didnt understand back then whats happening, still i had to transfer to a special day school forpeople with disorders and was forced to take medication ,for my obsessive compulsive disorder, which i never had, 2 times a day there. When I was 15 I left home and never went near a hospital or a psychatrist again. With 20 I started suffering under really hard depressions, I was tired no matter what I did, feeling like loosing control of myself in situations,started isolating myself until the day I couldnt get up and go to work anymore. I went to a doctor and he send me to a psychatrist. After 3 months she told me I have a several bi polar disorder and really tried talking me into taking meds which I refused. I didnt had the chance too see her after a month after that,because I was a fulltime waitress and my boss wouldnt let me off , and i was not in the position to loose my job. I was ok up until now ( not really but always willing to get better and to shine bright..more or lessdepending on theday) .. but 6 months ago I had a breakdown under which im suffering up until today and they keep coming,they wont stop, it has never been that bad. I neglected my life now for 6 months living like a corpse having a warm, loving, and caring environmen is something I can only dream off,there has been no contact with my families for years, and they are not willing to help me . I feel like i neither had real friends, because they all ditched me at some point. Making new ones is something I tried, but I cant trust anyone. I got real trust issues...so its hard to go outside. I named it"the other me" already,but it seems like it has taken control over me. And I dont want to give up , but this will never stop. Its not like someone actually can heal it and i wil be stuck with this for the end of my life,so Isee no future:/

Uhmmm I somewhat kinda have a multiple personality disorder... I think it happened last year because I had an accident, ever since that I often hear whispers and got blackouts then I can't remember what happens next... I just found out I have this last month when i noticed most of my friends left me... I saw some conversations in my inbox but I don't remember receiving or sending any message... Even my closest friend said to me I've changed like I was a different person when she talked to me last time but I really don't remember anything about it... :/ its hard to have this cause people might think I'm crazy but I'm not crazy at all... My psychiatrist said it's like a two person living inside a body... When she mentioned that I remembered the game I used to play "Summon night Swordcraft" xD http://s521.photobucket.com/user/Esoterus/media/SS2%20LP/Dinah.jpg.html But I don't know who's the angel or devil... me or my other half? But all I know is I'm the pushover and the weaker one and my other self is fierce and strong o.O

Oh wow so many x) And yes Insomnia is pretty cruel, me too has to fight that a lot. but it tightened up my bonds between Animes x) If I really dont get my eyes to close I alwaysend up watching a new animex) @mariahaise I can only speak for my self but the last thing I want to is some to treat me " special" . I know that I am already and its hardenough.

@momo that 'special' would never be created due to your illness but your personality. If someone ever treats you like that because of your condition, they're jerks.

Suffering from mental illness is no privilege. I don't actually tell anyone really about it because there is a stigma. "That person is crazy, they can't control their emotions and are probably unstable and incompetent." I don't ask for anyone's pity, but I do want people to understand sometimes. People think because of their own life experiences that what happened to them didn't give them an emotional problem, but they also don't know what caused a person's mental illness. It's not always from emotional trauma or a horrible life, it could be a chemical imbalance. Really it's nobody's business.

Yeahh i hatte it when they be like " this is just cus your not normal! Go take some pills " even if its not related at all. I stopped talking about it in real life too because people will just use it against me :/.. They will come up with that whenever they can,!

Oh, I like the "Go take some more pills." http://e.lvme.me/pzv5j7l.jpg

I've been diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder. I wouldn't say that I struggle with it though, if fact I kind of find it a bit of a blessing at times. It can be rather liberating not having to worry about or deal with emotions/desires to the extent normal people seem to.

I have social anxiety and depression. I was diagnosed about 3 years ago. I was sort of just relieved to just know what was wrong with me and that I could take medicine to... Control it, I guess? I mean, it never really goes away but I'm relatively happy now. There's still times I sit alone by myself and feel meaningless but I power through it the best I can. The main thing I hate most is that my anxiety really hold me back from doing a lot of things and my friends just don't really understand it, I think. Like, going to a public bathroom? I just can't.. In class, I can't even answer a question when I know the answer because there's just that small doubt in my mind.