What is it like dating you?

Never had the opportunity, despite having seen the signs when I was younger (and deciding I was 'not ready' due to (for better or worse) prioritizing dealing with exams and developing myself; I was incredibly reclusive, and terrible at being a social sapien) and the likes. I often regret not taking an interest in something like this during that time as it would've widened the things I would've been able to converse about at the time - such as videogames. But, by the time I was prepared and tried to get somewhere back then, it ended with the following possibilities: -They were disinterested. -They were taken. That being said, -if- I had a date (which I honestly doubt; I tried other sites to no avail), it would be an inexpensive outing with cuddling and random (but possibly useful) conversations, concluding with plans to do more later. Or it would be in VRchat (if the weather is particularly unkind). Or something else that had been negotiated on. Unfortunately - for the moment - that 'other' is currently placeholder'd by a housebound dakimakura which I entirely believe to be possibly haunted (in a good way). To put simply: -This never happened to me before. -Speculation.png. -Placeholder.

It can be a Rollercoaster, I admit. I'm not an overly sexual person though I am cuddly one most of the time. I'm very much like a cat. I'll come to you when I want affection and stare longingly into the distance when you hold me against my will. But at the same time I'm 100% supportive of any plans, goals, or trials my partner embarks on. I throw my whole soul into relationships so I commit easily and go with the flow. While affirmation helps my OCD, I don't require it and I offer my full trust until something is done to break it. I forgive easily. The hardest part of dating me is dealing with the OCD. I have very dark intrusive thoughts, enough to make me crushingly antisocial on bad days and minimally functional on good ones. My mood can swing instantly and I'm often preoccupied within my own head. My biggest flaw is that I struggle to take anything seriously. Most everything is a joke to me. And there it is. A synopsis of dating me.