Rennik Sadorn

The most I socialise is at a very small boardgaming group, or when I have the chance while volunteering at a charity shop. My life has been one of social distancing. I was lucky in education; the fellow students there socialised with me. In Primary School. Secondary was hit/miss with no recognition of any attempts at advancements. I wasn't able to tell what was a lie/trick/deception or what was legitimate as I had a hunch of the former when [female student] tells [male student] [female student 2] is interested in them. I became a ghost. Living, but unseen. Unheard. The most approach I've had from the opposite sex was... A lesson to be held to heart, and a person better let forgotten. In fact they wanted to become male the entire time, so already I was challenged, if not torn. That was after the better half of 7-9 years of trying to use sites/apps like Tinder, Bumble (when women got to make the move), PoF, etc - all of which did no good for my mental health. So as a male, I already suffer from many popular trends applied to my sex; being expected to be the initiator for just about everything, to know all the social and sociological nuances to 'get it right' when every person is different and has different assumptions about what you'll screw up next... I don't know what to say. Even the captcha is shaming me for my apparent failure to comply with the status quo. I simply yearn for a tall, curvaceous member of the opposite sex to cuddle with, whom I can spoil rotten with company, gaming, and my brand of honesty. In exchange for much the same (if not moreso) and a bit of a nudge for co-op existence. I yearn for them to guide the relationship, because I? I am tired. Exhausted from my exertions in my attempts to reach out in what I'd call desparation. When will the morals of our genders flip just enough that they get that courageous fire in them to push? // Edit: Don't know what happened with the formatting here. It just collapsed into a mess. Rather apt, because that's how I feel on the grand scale of things; helpless.

At the least it should be possible for someone to establish a Minecraft server with AI players running around - would be expensive to set up and run though, requiring [account quantity X price of Minecraft edition(s) + server upkeep] depending on how they go about it. It'd add nuance and a lasting variable to the server's existence - and can be used to clean up abandoned places and odd structures by either taking them over or recycling them; paired with a plugin for region ownership to prevent the AI from griefing other users and spawn and you get an interesting situation. Then again... we do have (or had) a Minecraft server representative of this site so if someone had the means it'd be an experiment worth running.