I need to get this out of my system.

I don't know if I am posting this in the right place, but whatever. I just am hurting too fucking much. Warning, this will be lengthy. Today, I was dumped by my girlfriend of a year. I know, not that long, I shouldn't be feeling this way. It's not the whole dumping thing, it's the fact how she did it and what was said. I am not the most positive person you'll meet. I've been through so much and am going through tough shit as of late. I've been trying to get past these weeks in a positive manner. Mostly because she is a positive person. I was trying so hard for her to make it work, as we were a long distance couple. I don't look at long distance to be something horrible. I've seen really good ones. Anyway, I have severe anxiety that I take medication for. There are days when I'm just feeling so damn depressed and I can't help it. Really, I can't. She has bipolar, so her mood swings can be severe. With each one, I was there. I was her rock, I did everything in my power to help. Last night, I was bad for me. I recently found out how someone from my past lied the crap to me and it really brought me crashing. Yesterday night, I just fell apart. I looked up to her for support because we promised each other that we'd help during tough times. At one point, I said I was going to go for the night because I was tired and today was her mom's birthday so I wanted her to be in a good mood. What happens? She gets a panic attack. I try to calm her down, and she does. I think things will be okay and retire for the night. Nope. Lol. She breaks up with me. She told her parents and therapist and brother figure her side of the story, to which they say it's unhealthy. Okay. Not mad at them, I don't know them personally. But to twist your words to make it seem I'm to blame? Fuck you royally. I ACCEPT what I have done wrong, everything. Yeah, times when I could've acted better. But damn, did I try. Did I fucking try through everything that's been going on. Okay. You have my number and Skype, you could have called me and told me. To me, breaking up via email is a coward ass move. Tell it to me with your voice. Let me hear it. Basically, she has pulled the bipolar card on me to induce guilt, which triggers my anxiety and makes me feel worse. To her, it seemed like I was doing it on purpose when I wasn't. One minute it's, "I love you, I won't let anyone harm you" to, "I can't do this anymore". Won't let anyone harm me, yet harms me in return, hm. I just... she knew how fragile I am, how I was going through so much during these past months. Now I'm blocked and deleted. Oh, and those stories she wrote? I did all of the work. I gave the ideas, proofread, and fixed it up. She removed me from the description section to take all the credit. TL;DR: I was used by someone who played the victim and mental illness card.

A year is nothing to sneeze at it's alright to feel upset about it. At the same time it's better than this happening many years down the line. You know, if she's as bipolar as you say she is, she might still change her mind about this whole thing. Well whatever happens I wish you luck out there and hopefully your next relationship works out better.

Not a long time but you do have the right to be upset. You about same boat as me but mine is different, she wanted me to stay friend but I block and deleted her. Cannot bear the site of her. Let the time heal you although eat some food and play some games will soothes you better :).

I had a similar experience here is a guide: How to get over a break up and come out better . Step 1:Give her/him a big middle finger and stop thinking why she said and did some things .In the long run it wont help you very much and you wont get any answers . Step 2:If you depressed try to think like this you have your hole life before you, you will make mistakes so what every one does. Step 3:Try to better yourself in any way you can .Try to understand the brain. Search as much up about anxiety why it let you feels like shit and all that stuff it helped me :). Final Step :Realize there are a lot of awesome people in this world and that you will find sombody else. I hope this helped :p.

@Everyone Thanks for the nice words. I'm doing much better now. :)

You should take this time now to think what you need to do for yourself. Focus on facing your anxiety and building up your own support network without having to support a partner. Broaden your horizons, take up a new hobby and have some fun. A year is a long enough time and I agree that being "dumped" by email is not the way to do it but if you can accept that the relationship is over then you will be able to move on in time. Chin up and carry on. It will get better over time.

I tend to say to not burn bridges. My advice is to cut her off until she comes to you with an apology. Accept it when it comes but tell her you can't trust her anymore. I've done that and it throws the ball in their court- if they turn over a new lead, they stick around as a friend. If they are as mean spirited as ever, they go fuck with someone else. A year is a long time, but not a life time. Move on, you'll be fine. Have a drink, that's what I did when my ex left me a year back. A few make you feel better and more confident, and then you can put yourself and out there. It's my experience, and I barely drink as is.