venting...

were to start i dont even know, well lets put it this way might as well say it now im just venting if you wanna read and/or comment go for it if not well then dont and if all your gunna do is talk shit then dont even bother to write anything nobody will give a damn what you have to say, call this a cry for attention if you want i dont care if thats how you look at it its whatever but anyways enough of that let the venting begin, soo i live in a shitty navy town with nothing to do at all i used to go out and skateboard with my so called "friends" at the time but its funny how many of these so called "Friends" still hang around after graduating high school. (cont)

very little do i skateboard anymore excluding the fact that anything worth skating has been nubbed off or cops are there in less than 2 min for skateboarding but if a fight broke out or somebody gets killed something that actually matters they are never there, my life feels like it has gone to shit since high school (not like it was any better.. people were either scared of me or wanted to try and fight me because i know karate people were and are still dumb) im just glad i was able to find out who my real friends are compared to "party friends" acquaintances or whatever you wanna call em, my whole life it seems like whenever i did anything good and start getting somewere i always get pushed right back down like whatever i do is never good enough, (spent the past 3 years in and out of courts all because of a friggin unopen can of beer in the car that wasnt even mine..i didnt even drink at all that day) every relationship ive had if you can even call it that has never lasted more than 3 months and i see people that have been together for years that i grew up with and it makes me think when will it be my time, but instead when i do get a girlfriend she either does nothing but play retarted ass head games or winds up hooking up with somebody else expecting me to take her back when shit dont work out sorry but im not gunna play choice number 2 its either your with me or your not plain and simple, (cont)

i havent had a girlfriend in over a year now (not to mention 2 years before that) its drivin me nuts, makes me wonder what i did wrong in these "relationships" to fall through, ya ive got some trust issues but i really only start having the trust issues when i get stood up by my own so called girlfriend and you dont even try to let me know what hell is goin on if you cant hang out just let me know dont have me waiting around all day not knowing what the hell is goin on the way i look at it is if you cant be honest with the person you are with then whats the point of even being with that person, maybe its because im too nice i dont know, ya i wanna go out and try and meet new people but it this town all your gunna meet are tweekers, there is litterally no place to really socialize unless you go to the bars and well like i said tweekers there everywhere in this town, (cont)

honestly at this moment only things im looking forward too is starting my job so i can have money for once and sakura-con next year.... at least its only an hour ferry ride away so i can acutally go, and that hope that tells me "hey your still young youll find the one eventually" ive been told by countless people to just stop looking and that person will find you, ya well im really starting to have my doubts on that, the american life what is it really if you think about it.......you wake up you go to work you get home eat relax maybe a few hours then sleep and the same routine all over again, i feel like if i dont find somebody by then thats all my life will consist of work and sleep and i dont want that to happen at least if i had someone i would have someone to look forward to seeing everynight,you know give her a hug and kiss and ill be content..... anyways thats all im gunna type i guess. if you stayed through and read the whole thing i applaud you *claps* i feel better now gunna go watch spice and wolf and try to get some sleep.

you said "shitty navy town". i assume bremerton? lol. I'm stationed on PSNS if that sounds familiar. Anyway bro, I think the best advice I can give you is just do you. Don't worry about finding a girlfriend. Focus on whatever it is you believe to be fun or whatever it is you can do to make yourself a better person than you were the day before. Self improvement is an effective way to kill time while you wait for a potential girlfriend. If you're tripping over girls, you'll only get distracted and disappointed. Go to things like Sakuracon (which by the way was freaking awesome, i'm already pre-registered for the next one. i think its still $35 so do it now since it will only get more expensive) and you'll most likely find someone who shares in your interests. Also places like anime shops and manga sections of barnes and noble are a great place to meet people that share your interests (i'm assuming you like anime since you are registered here). In short, focus on yourself, go to places where people share your interests, and just chill and watch some anime. If you are in bremerton, I feel your pain bro, this place fkn sucks

salamat, and yup you guessed it bremerton born and raised ill acutally be workin on the shipyard starting this week, my thing is like i ask myself do i actually want a girl right now or do i, i guess the thing that bugs me the most out of it all is not knowing if thats what i want or not kind of hard to explain, manga and anime shops there really isnt crap down here only place i can think of is this comic shop on the east side of town and barns and noble in silverdale but i usually dont have money so i never go. idk and yes sakura-con this year was awesome it was my first year at any con and im definately going again next year you said pre-reg is still up, that mean i gunna do that asap

That's horrible, man!:( I got kind of emotional reading that. And those people who say that love will come find you... they're all wrong! You have to put YOURSELF out there. Meanwhile, have you ever thought about adopting a pet or something when you have a steady source of income? (preferably a dog) They'll love you unconditionally, and while they can't make sandwiches for you, they're still someone who can keep the bed warm or look forward to your arrival after work. Also, they never betray you. :3

yeah my current photo is a sakuracon photo and it was my first convention too. i was completely hooked after that haha. when you get a job and can move around better and economically, look up "kinokuniya" in seattle. i love that place. anime/jculture/jmusic everywhere. its one of my favorite place to go when i have nothing else to do and i wanna get away from bremerton. and you can just hang out at the manga section for now, you dont have to buy anything. i did it all the time in high school. and i agree with Kyetge, put yourself out there bro. you cant catch fish if you arent in the water lol. on that same note dont worry if you cant catch anything today. come back tomorrow with a better fishing rod! (the fishing rod being you) also out of curiousity, what are you gonna be working on in the shipyard? i might see you and say whats up. i'm a sailor on the USS Ronald Reagan

I know exactly how you feel. It hurts big time to find out that people you thought were friends really weren't. Actually I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I do however agree with Kyetge! about the pet. I was feeling pretty lonely myself until I got my dog, and I was definitely not a dog person before him. Sure it's not the same as having an emotional bond with a person but they do love you unconditionally. I'd recommend that if Bremerton is that bad you look at other places. I moved up here to WA from S. FLA and it did me a world of good.