So im an alcoholic

I use to hit the bar pretty heavily here where the age is 19, i still hit it on occassion. It's a quick get away from the demons.

https://littlecloudcuriosity.files.wordpress.com/2014/10/gugure-kokkuri-san-episodes-1-2-25.jpg This is what happens when u drink too much

Alcoholism runs in my family, but I am not one myself. I have to drink a huge amount to get drunk, and I don't like the taste of it so I don't normally. And every time I been drunk I remember it all and I wasn't that bad. I get all huggy and give people kisses on the cheeks and since I am less nervous and more relaxed I am better at stuff like archery. Yes I have done archery while drunk off my arse. I do get dull witted, but it's funny. like once I said "What's this buzzy feeling called." and my friend said "a buzz." and I smiled and said "Good name." I have more of a problem with sugar.

I don't drink nearly enough to be labled an alcoholic, but I enjoy a wide variety of alcohol. In fact, I was drunk last night because I had the best glass of wine I ever tasted so I had to get another~ I am like trahecreations when I am drunk. I get really satisfied with life. When I am out and about, I feel so comfortable and flirtatious. Buzz = flirtatious and fun to be around Drunk = I love EVERYBODY Drunk off ass = Giggling like an idiot All and all, alcohol helps me relax and interact with people, so it's a good thing for me in moderation.

Same as Arc^^ I do not drink too much but many of my friends had to have breathalyzers installed in their cars over various times. Two of them own a brewery so they create their own habit =p I started drinking with my friends in high school as many do I think. I have been around the bar scene since I was too young to drink working in bands and saw so much crazy stuff I did not go to a bar when I was 21 for my free drinks. I already knew what it was like. Obligatory nag @OP: If your drinking is out of control I hope you get help to manage it before something really bad happens. People are capable of immense inner-strength but sometimes need a guide to find it. It sound like you might have the desire to control it so go forth and conquer. peace...

Im sorry man i understand, you can get through it... PSA for everyone, Follow these rules of drinking: never drink alone, never drink upset, never drink and drive even a little bit, never drink and make a serious decision.. Etc. Only drink when you are happy and with friends, if you aren't careful alcohol can be a crutch :(