So half dead site...

yep thats what makes us Otaku good ppl and more why I love cons XD want to go to a con im MO at Holiday inn coco key water resort ^.^ Idk what I want to cosplay as I was going to go as Noble Gundam its in 5 months I beleave and yes love that anime! wish it would continue

Loving anime is why we are here. Lol I like Durara too. I got some rings on my cell. Awesome series. Speaking of broken hearts mine was completely destroyed. But the weird thing is I keep seeing an image of the girl who broke it. I see her crying in my head. Is a long story but in short she left me for another guy partly because we are so far away. We agreed that after she graduated if we are both available to get together. What gets me is that i told her how much she hurt me and she didn't apologize. In my mind I know she used me I know she was needy and only had me around until someone else showed up. I still can't help but feel sad to think of her getting hurt. Is partly the reason why I didn't tell her off. I worked hard to get her some self confidence and to tell her how she wrong me I think it would destroy everything I worked hard for. I don't know if is right to leave her in ignorance or if she knows what she did to me. I feel anything I say about it would destroy her self image and in the end cause her to ruin anything new with anyone else. Do you guys have any suggestions? I feel raw about it cause I am still hurt and I still talk to her. I don't want to lash out and break her heart. So i am talking about it to cool off.

Double post ignore this one It almost seems like I become a sacrifice so someone else could enjoy my efforts. (Sighs) sometimes I am too nice.

ya I am still at odds with my ex trying to move on is what I'm trying to do personal talking Ichigotom and getting to know him... wow love is complicating XP I just want to find happiness with someone and trying to still be friends with my ex but I know how you feel endlessknight feeling hate but still careing for someone ugh I feel sick thinking about it wow... v.v I know 100% he dosen't want me anymore IDK I just want to give into the hate but ugh IDK I wish I was some one else a lot I'm not the one to talk to about this I would just make you feel worse I'm just trying to find some one new replace renew start over hopeing this time the chose is right well if he wants to... -.-' um over 9000....

Endlessknight, if it is not too late to tell her then do it. Tell her how she betrayed you because that too is a life lesson for both of you. Everyone, the past must be laid to rest. Attachments of this world are not the otaku way! Our lives are meant to be found and shared with people who understand the romance we feel similar to the feelings we get about our most beloved anime stories. Our lives deserve to be played out like the stories we grew up loving. We live with our own decisions, and sometimes love can control us to the point where we forget how to be strong on our own terms. That is why you must give up the love that has destroyed your heart. It is now spring and like the mother earth, it is now a time to grow. Growing pains will be part of that growth as we change, but you must let the past be the past. Put a stop to all your hurt and fears and rest. Stop thinking about it at all. There is a more important love out there for us. We must do everything, anything we can at all, to prepare ourselves to find that love. We must be ready to receive that love. Endlessknight, BrokenHeartGoddess. I have been hurt as you have. In last winter the girl I loved I bought a ring for but found that her heart was set on a soldier overseas that she had been friends with for a long time. I had to break up with her and gave the ring back without her ever knowing my desires for us. No one knows how we feel. Stop. Rest.

I was hoping you say something fullmetal you sound like me before I was blinded by emotion. This won't be easy but I will find the strength to do it. Thank you for giving me direction again.

Lol I am kind of glad she isn't my problem anymore. I feel relieved a little. I couldn't just tell her. But I asked her if she learned anything the entire time we were together. She couldn't think of a single thing. She just said I should say what I was going to say and stop wasting her time. Lol Shows how much she cares. I even asked if she had time to talk to me. I don't know why i fell for her anymore. She is way to cold to me now. Even though I supported her when she was down. It seems everything she said to me really was a lie to satisfy her needs. Someone like that is best for her to find out the hard way. I don't care anymore if she gets used or hurt. If she doesn't care for others she might as well pay for it.