some one take me away

If that's true than you know what's wrong already. The real questions are: Are you happy with your self? Are willing to change yourself? And How badly do want it? Answer that and we will believe in you. So believe in yourself. You can do it

I've been there and every once in a while fall into periods of depression just because things haven't gotten better, or have gotten worse. My advice, don't focus on love. Went through it, and getting it back becomes such a burden that you could end up hating yourself more for it. Focus on things that are fun, that make life livable or at least adequate (since it's a start). I may not have a girlfriend, but I ended up with more friends than I could count, including some who I'll be heading up to Anime Boston and Pax East with. This holds true with other aspects of life, like how I'm risking getting let go by going to these conventions (since I'm leaving Mar 31st rather than Apr 5th). Fact is, I find seeing my best buds up in NYC every few months more important in the long run than working as a merchandiser in a retail establishment in a state I want to get out of, especially considering that I may start a game company with a few of them. Regardless, that's my two cents; say fck it and focus on something else. The feelings may creep up on you every once in a while, but at least it's not 24/7.

huh. i never thought of it that way. thanks domino. that kinda helps. maybe ill try that. and LOL true. it's not 24/7 at all XD

i think everyone has felt that pain its the worst feeling in the world but the way i see it if you havnt experienced it you have ever truly loved anyone i sympathise with people that have felt it cus ive been feeling it everyday for the past year

I know what your going through but things do get better with time wounds eventually heal and the pain fades and life goes forward again its all a matter of standing back up when you get knocked down

I cant advice too much on the love issue, however I CAN advice when it is in regards to living on the streets, I been homeless for 3 years, and it really isnt as bad as you'd think, depending on how you handle the situation that is. I thought myself rather useless and pathetic when i ended up on the streets, and sure enough the first two weeks i was begging and eating out the trashcans... But then I stopped feeling sorry for myself and changed my perspective, instead of being a bum with nothing to eat and nowhere to go, I became an adventurer, outsmarting the merchants so i could eat, and tricking the city guards ( policemen ) so as to not end up behind bars, it really turned out to be the most exciting 3 years of my life, and i learned alot about interacting with other people ( i was lucky enough to find a pack to run with after about a month ) in comparison, having a job an appartment and an income is extremely boring...

Taking the first steps towards anything can be difficult. But in taking those steps you will finally end up at a destination. To follow 'closed'. Grab all the help you possible can. The sooner you start, The sooner you'll be better off.

it sucks I have to try to be happy for my job... I cant find the energy to be happy any more the one guy who loved me just broke my heart .... I'll never find love again I know this to be true he was the only person I could be myself around I never had to be girly and he still thought I was hot... no one well ever think im hot ... no one well ever want to e with me I have failed at love and I well fail at life ...

You remind me a lot of a girl I am seeing now. If he fell for you once he can fall for you again just show him that you can be someone better than you are. Just think positively I know is not easy but even if he doesn't come back to you at least you will feel better. If you feel better then someone will want to be with you. If you are always depress no one wants to step into a relationship with someone that's in pieces. People have a hard time keeping them selves together as it is.