some one take me away

Couple of months ago actually! Someone coming to take the pain away isnt the real answer though! Its like putting a plaster on a bullet wound. Take the time to let your heart settle (its what Im still doing....) and then eventually you will feel better!

Also, after reading some of your other post, killing yourself isnt the answer either. Your pain might go away but of those that care about you? Thats what stopped me doing it... Alcohol is only a temporary fix too...Ive been drinking a lot more recently, not gonna say its a bad thing though, since its helped me distract myself. Its not healthy though, but it helps...

its not just that... I live with him and I well have no place to go. my dad is in jail and my mom lives in MO I dont even have a car and no way to call anyone ... death sounds pritty good compared to liveing on the street... it just sucks that I'm too weak to do it ... thanks for talking to me ...

Anytime, its what I good for.. and all this sounds quite personal so if you want to talk Im more than willing to listen and offer you all the advice I can so just PM me if you want? Im well practiced.... But seriously, death isnt the way to go, believe me...Ive felt that way before, not proud of myself for admitting it but there you go!

Please try these numbers. I am too far away to help you. But you can help your self. Try these organizations and someone will be able to help you. Try to see if they can help you get back to your mother. Or at least get a game plan. Show your ex you can be resourceful. http://www.findcounseling.com/help/hotlines/kansas.html

Many times but its part of living. Don't wish it away and use it- it lets you know you're still alive. Trust me, better to feel pain than nothing at all. Staying alive is strength, not weakness and I recommend you get help for your feelings of depression. I've lived wishing for my own death before, its not a nice place to be and its not a place you deserve to be either. Ask around for services to help you find a home aswell, there is always hope but noone can do it for you.

Yes many many times. Like my latest Ex broke up on me via text message at 2 in the morning because "she thought she was a lesbian" after she thought about us having sex. It made me feel like I' m just some hidieous beast. But i moved on and now looking for someone who will see the real me and love me for me.

ya I should get help but I'm also afraid to... like has any one ever thought If you take pills or change something like that, that you are not you any more IDK I have too many problems with me to fix I'm depressed, emotional, paranoid, lazy, ADD, anti-social, and psychotic to boot NO one likes me every person I meet all end up HATEing me. I am trash and I just need to die (Ow I am stuped to, the only reason I graduated was because I stayed invisible and wasent a problem child