Quote of sadness

My family was never supporting me. I had a lot of fights, and my father almost left us because of me. We're also in a financial crysis but that's beside the point. I have no idea what they want from me... My grades are top of the school, i'm doing a lot of sports, I don't drink smoke or whatever, I NEVER ask for money, and almost everything I had is earned (By selling drawings and stuff). My brother also used to abuse me, we would have a lot of fights and he broke my nose once. All of that has brought me to become kind of dark. But somehow i'm keeping that all inside me. I'm still trying to be the best person I can be, and helping out anyone and comforting them. But when i'm out, in school of example.. I'm laughing all the time, telling jokes, and just being a troll... Everyone I know has a completely different view of me, then I really am. All that being said, I found somewhere this quote "In my deepest parts of sadness, I'm always making a joke or being sarcastic". I was just amazed of how much I related to that quote, and I hope some of you feel the same. My hair is the only way of expressing my feelings, without changing my stance in public.

@shadowflamedragon I don't think he knows the meaning of the word. Being blunt is kind of his thing.

Loli-chan, I like how when I asked you a question in another thread you flat out ignore me but when I make a comment somewhere else you pop up. So now I get it. If I want to get your attention, don't talk/mention your name just simply do what I normally do. Also, me? Sensitive? you're wasting your time. That's like asking Loli-chan to not deactivate it's account after every single post