Problems defining your own sexuality?

I consider myself hetrosexual in all practical ways because I'm attracted to feminine trates and not masculine from both an aesthetic (in the sense of wanting to be near and touch) and/including the sexual (pheromone) way. Although I can appreciate the physical beauty of certain men. However I also have a strong feminine side that is intellectually separate from my biologically heterosexual male side. I would be a girl if I could and I think it would "feel" more me and suit my personality better. I have had sexual fantasies of having sex with men as a woman but my heterosexual male biology is strong enough to override any desire to want sexual contact with a male as a male. I've had to gay male friends who I allowed to to give me oral sex but I just felt awkward and uncomfortable.

@Taylor Like I've stated before, I felt so much more when I had sex with a woman. It was a kinda warm fuzzy feeling along with classic sexual pleasure but with a man it was just pleasure and nothing else. Listen its more about relationships instead of sex. If it were that easy to determine what is going on I wouldn't have created this topic.

@chic: the point of this thread seems to be that you want a relationship over sexual gratitude. The problem is that you dont get romantic with a guy, but sexually pleasured, while the reverse for a woman. The bottom line is if youre wanting a relationship (hence from what you are saying is more important than sexual gratitude), you are closer to women than males. Nothing wrong with that. Just keep your head up. You will find the one somebody who makes you happy, guy or girl, and all this won't matter. :)

Sexuality is very hard to define. I for one consider myself very heterosexual, but I tend to be attracted to things simply because they are taboo. For instance, if I were to see trap hentai of a guy in a very feminine appearance and submissive position, my mind gets mixed signals. I have no attraction to traps in real life, so I don't really know what to classify it as.