yuuzora

I have been very curious about some social experiments, so I made a quiz that's like my own. You can take it and share it if you want to. Let me know if you have questions or suggestions. https://www.quotev.com/quiz/16464672/Are-You-Who-Im-Looking-For

Random Thoughts No One Should Read. I just have to write it out so I can get it out of my head. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today I learned I have Fearful-Avoidant / Disorganized attachment disorder. It makes sense why I'm so averse to 'getting to know' people. I just don't trust them to understand me. Not that anyone really understands me as I am now. I've been through too much and it'd just be nice to have someone fundamentally empathize(as opposed to sympathize) with those experiences. Sadly, people that go through these sorts of trauma often end up developing narcissistic traits that often lead to abusive behaviors. I almost went to that end, too, but I was lucky to have just enough self-awareness to see that's where my relationship was heading. Even if I couldn't stand that giant man baby, I didn't want that for him, so I broke it off before it got too far.... and that's where I am now. Letting people close has really only caused me trouble. So I avoid it. So that's why it's so hard to form bonds. I feel perpetually not understood and a fear of being hurt again. So now that I understand the problem... what the hell is the solution? I know better than to let people close to me. They just don't understand. It's no fault of theirs of course, but it still feels... isolating... I almost feel like it's a twisted superiority complex on my part because I've been through so much that would break too many others. Of course, that's dumb as shit and a narcissistic behavior. Luckily I'm normal when it comes to narcissistic behaviors, but I still like to keep it all in check. And I still don't have an answer. How do you let people close who are normal? They don't care what you've gone through and they'll never understand it... oof... it hurts say that out loud... so I really don't feel understood. I wonder if I'll know my person by the way they make me feel understood?

I've been hoping to get a little group to New York sometime next year. Not quite Cali or Texas. We haven't decided on a con or exact place yet, though. One other person here was going to join. So it's up to you if you want to also. Do you have anyone traveling with you or are you flying solo?

Digital. At the moment I need the exposures, so free art tends to do that. I originally had 30 spaces and now I have 5, so it's working as intended so far.

I was watching this episode of Jetman. One of the monsters is a hair dryer. It's found out later he's a nice guy and he takes a job as an apprentice barber. I think you made a post about nice Kaiju before. https://youtu.be/2SIeCwah8lk

I sent a strongly worded letter to someone who managed to get me verbally attacked by a literal nazi and a person who does not think women are people. I tried to be nice, but we'll see... honestly hate having to be so nice... it'd be nice to be seen as a human every once in a while. Come to think of it, I don't think it's ever happened outside of my siblings... I really wish I could become a hermit.

Random, you said before something about whether I'd call chips "Chips or Crisps". But I'm curious. Do you call popsicles "popsicles" or "Freezer Pops"?