Show your emotions. it is unhealthy to try to be someone you are not and bottling issues. find someone you trust (or an internet forum) and vent to people and consult with others.https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLwxNMb28XmpckOvZZ_AZjD7WM2p9-6NBv videos from this channel helps me understand myself and others check em out.
That's cool. I'm just learning it by myself from some online resources, got a long way to go..