lucifer57

Having grown up in a deeply religious environment, my perspective on God may appear unconventional. While I find solace in conversing with God during challenging times, viewing them as a close friend, I am increasingly skeptical of their existence. The prevalence of suffering worldwide, including poverty, starvation, and cancer, makes it difficult for me to perceive this being as a god. If such an entity exists and allows these atrocities to persist, it raises questions about their benevolence and power. In fact, if suffering is a test, I would rather choose to go to hell than accept a deity that allows such immense pain. As I delve deeper into the concept of God, I see reflections of human character in the depictions found in our religious texts. This leads me to doubt the divine nature of gods and question whether they are merely anthropomorphic creations. It seems implausible that a being with human-like traits could endure for such an extensive period of time. Furthermore, contemplating the existence of gods opens up a Pandora's box of possibilities, including the presence of mythical creatures such as monsters, vampires, dragons, orcs, wizards, and witches. Can our Earth truly accommodate such hidden entities? If there is even a remote chance that all of these exist in a separate dimension inaccessible to humans until death, the scale of that dimension would have to be unimaginably vast to encompass the entirety of existence from the beginning of time until now. It strains credulity to believe that such a space could still have room after all these eons. The more I attempt to make sense of it, the more it appears nonsensical. Considering these factors, I am inclined to believe that if a god ever did exist, they were present in the past and are no longer among us. The notion of otherworldly realms like heaven and hell lacks logical coherence as well. If rewards and punishments were necessary, why not simply create puppets that unquestioningly follow the deity's will? The freedom and unpredictability of life suggest that there is no higher entity directing its course. Apologies if my thoughts seem disjointed. As I mentioned earlier, my upbringing in a religious background has led me to question the existence of God. The more I am exposed to the suffering in the world, the more I find it difficult to reconcile with the idea of a benevolent and omnipotent deity.